Be Mine? (Phan)

Chapter five: roomies

Dan's pov

I wake up, I was leaning on Phil's shoulder and he had fallen asleep with his head leaning on mine. I blushed a deep shade of red.

He was so adorable, but I was so awkward. He's probably straight anyways. I don't know why I always thought I had a chance with guys who were way out of my league. Phil was so beautiful, but I, I was me. Even if he was gay, he wouldn't even like me.

I didn't realize that I had been thinking about dating Phil for so long, Phil woke up. "hey sleeping beauty." I said- automatically regretting those words. Thinking that Phil would have slapped me, or got angry but instead, he grinned at me, blushing a bit too. "hi." oh god he was way too cute. I just smiled at him.

Phil's pov

I woke up happy. Dan greeted me with "hey sleeping beauty." And i blushed a lot.

I am still so confused. I don't think i'm gay. I have dated girls and that's it i've never liked looking at guys or thinking of them, but even though i've known Dan for about six hours or so, every time i'm around him i get butterflies. I won't admit this to anyone though. At least not until i'm fully sure of what's happening myself.
For a bit Dan and i were silent, but then he started asking me questions. I guess he wanted to get to know me.

Dan's pov

Oh man, this trip might be even better than i thought. Instead of learning and enjoying the things around me, i'll be thinking about Phil. I'll be wondering i he likes me back, if he's straight or gay' or i'll just be thinking about him. I haven't known him for even one day and now i have to develop a massive crush on him. Why always me? He better like be back other wise this trip will be a waste of money.

I decided to ask him questions like, what shows he watched and what books he likes. Turns out he lives and breathes Buffy. The way his eyes lit up when he spoke about it made me so happy.

After a couple hours of getting to know each other passed by, we had finally landed. We got off the plane and to the airport where we waited for our bags.

Phil's pov

On the way to the hotel, me and Dan took different cabs. This gave me more time to think about my 'issue'. It was hard for me, thinking of all the times i had preferred males over females. My whole life i had grown up, not even realizing my own sexuality. I can't believe it. So i guess i'm gay. Before i can tell anyone else, i think i should tell my parents. I ask the cab driver if he could find a way to get to the hotel before anyone. He said that it would cost ten dollars extra. I said yes because this was really important.

When i got to the hotel my room was ready so i took my key and went to the room. I sat on the bed and searched for my moms contact. I took a deep breath as i hit the facetime button. It rang once. She picked up. "Oh, Phil, sweetheart!Oh, honey come! Phillip is on the phone!" she grinned at me. my dad came on screen. Before they could attack me with questions, I spoke. "Mom, dad I need to tell you guys something." they smiled "did you finally meet a girl?" my dad said jokingly. "actually, no. Quite the opposite." I paused, and my parents glanced at each other. "I- I'm gay..." I said quietly. My parents looked confused-worried even. "Phil, can we call you back tonight?" I forced a smile and nodded.

They hung up. I lay on the bed. I had really done it this time. Stupid boys looking stupid and pretty all the time. Why did I have to be gay? Why at this time in my life. Why didn't I realize when I was thirteen. That's normal 'coming out time' why can't I be normal.

I was crying now. I was in a fetal position, crying and repeating '"i'm gay."

Suddenly, the door opened. I was mid-sentence, "I'm ga-"

Dan's pov

I walk into my room. Maybe Phil was there. I smiled at the thought of him. I opened the door. Phil was there, lying down on his bed. He was crying. "I'm ga-" he was saying. He stops and then looks up at me. His eyes are puffy and his face is red. "Dan." he stared at me. "Phil? what were you saying. Why are you crying?" he looked so hurt. I wanted to go up to him and kiss him, but as i kept saying, he probably isn't even gay. That's it. That's what he was saying. He's gay. I tried not to squeal. "you're gay?" he furrowed his eyebrows and panicked slightly. "pfft, no. Gay people suck." Those words hit me hard.

Phil's pov

"pfft, no. Gay people suck." I said. Am I an idiot? I'm gay! why can't I just admit it.

I looked up at Dan and he looked hurt. His eyes were watering. "why am I always right?" he screamed at himself. "D-dan I didn't mean it like that i-" he glares at me. "no, I get it. Gay people suck. I heard you nice and clear." I shake my head. "I'm just scared, Dan please don't hate me." he was going to leave so I got up and grabbed his wrist, he shook me off. "Dan, listen, please." He sighed "what?" he snapped. "gay people don't suck. For a fact, I'm gay myself. I just came to terms with it. I came out to my parents over facetime and they asked to call me back. I don't know how they will take it." I sobbed "I'm just scared." he then smiled at me. His smile was beautiful. "i understand. I'm gay too, don't worry." he then wrapped his arms around me. His face was getting close to mine. He was only inches away from me when I realized, he was going to kiss me. I moved away "Dan, i can't." I ran to the bathroom and locked myself in it. Why do i ruin everything?