Disbelief (Alternate version)

A Happy Ending? Chapter 1

I knew it. They were all happy, they all had their happy ending. And I like them all so much... I loved walking this journey with them. It had been amazing, meeting them all, becoming thier friends, having them care for me, freeing me from the Underground and letting them roam the surface. The humans had been so tolerant and nice to all the monsters, especially since I acted as their Ambassidor. And now we all have a house where all of us live together, happy ever after... And yet still. I posess this power to reset and save and Ive actaually been doing some research with Alphys... I even managed to tell all of my friends I have this power! And they were really nice because they knew exactly I only ever used this power for good. Im so glad their happy. But... what if... I reset, got past the last corridor... and then reset and got the good ending again? Then I wouldnt have to be so curious about this anymore. I dont really want to hurt them, but it would make me emotionally strong, I could know chara better, I could know all of them better AND I wont actually destroy anything, Ill just stop before I actually get to Asgore. I could get so much better at dodging... and fighting. What if I actually ever have to fight someone, and couldnt because I wasnt used to it?

And these were only a few of the excuses I tried to find for my actions.

I should have known how cheap they were.

I came towards Flowey. As soon as he heard my steps, he quickly turned around, put up his smile and started talking. I barely listened to what he was saying and could hear chara quietly whispering in my head: We've heard this already. So I didnt pay attention, but tried something out that I hadnt  thought of the first time I was here. I didnt trust him. Instead, I moved to the side as he flung his bullets towards me. He got angry. I could see his expression twitching, his theme slowing in annoyance. He tried again and again and eventually snapped, screaming at me and attacking me with his evil face. And then I saw Toriel. Coming up to me, saving me from Flowey and taking me in. I suddenly felt unbelievably unsure about all this. I just wanted all of them to remember me on one hand and I wanted them all to forget all of this will ever happen on the other. I just wanted the happy ending back, but I couldnt just abort my mission now, my quest. Only that this quest was everything but honorable, only there to destroy instead of to save. Yet I felt like I had to do this. Somehow, I had to. So I continued to follow Toriel, solving her Puzzles, telling her what I liked... But not after I had 'grinded' in the first room... I had killed. The first time was absolutely horrible. I felt terrible guilt and dread, and still I went on, still I was determined to only reset when I past the last corridor before the throne room. So I continued. I killed one after the other, looking at their horrifyed faces before their very being turned into nothing but ashes, into nothing but a bit of dust. I watched them fall, and all this time a voice in my head urged me to keep going, so I did. And when I arrived at Toriel's house, had grabbed the pie and put it into my box, I felt like I was living through my worst nightmares. Now I had to tell Toriel I wanted to leave her here in the empty ruins that hold nothing but Dust. I didnt want to. I wanted to stay here and at least keep her company after WHAT IVE DONE. I felt horrible, I felt like I had to reset immidiently if I wanted to live with myself after this. But the voice in my head continued telling me I had to stay determined, I had to do what was necessary. I just had to know what happens. I will make them all happy after this. I promise I will...

I started crying. I never wanted any of this... But I had to. I had to continue no matter what... And while we're at it, we might as well have our fun. Don't tell me you didnt enjoy that even a little! I heard chara talking and I knew it. I knew she was right. I was just trying to hide behind my tears. My pathetic excuses... I enjoyed doing this. Being this powerful... It felt like the worst and best thing at the same time. So I stood up, whiped my tears away and decided to follow charas advice.

When I arrived at the bridge, I turned around immidiently and saw Sans standing there. He reached out his hand. Yet I noticed it was... shaking? Had it always been this way? I looked at him and suddenly tears burst out of his eyes and he started crying heavily, he turned his back on me, fell to the ground and I could hear him sobbing. I walked around him and kneeled there, trying to look him in the eyes. He looked up and whispered with a shaky voice, 'Why... Why Frisk? Weren't you happy enough? Wasn't this ending what you wanted? Why... WHY DID YOU RESET FRISK?!?' He turned his face away from me. 'Y-you... S-sans, Im so sorry... I... I honestly didnt know you could... remember... Im sorry. I just... I have to, I have to. I have to do this. Once. Ill make everybody happy after this again, I promise... Im so sorry I have to do this' I felt my own eyes tearing up, yet my determination was too strong for me to just give up now. He looked at me again. 'No, I... but I cant do this. I wont be able to stay sane if you go through your plans of killing... everyone... Undye, Alphys, P-paps...' Come on, you know you have a solution to this. At least propose it to him! I knew chara was right... again. So I told sans of what I had been thinking... Its not the brightest or the best idea, but it was kindof a solution. 'S-Sans, what if... If nothing matters... What if you were...' I took a deep breath and quickly brabbeled out everything: 'What if I were to kill you now so you dont have to fight me later and so you wont have to live through this at all?'

Silence.