We Fell Apart

Its all Lies Darling

Harry's POV

She had gone, i couldnt believe she left. A simple goodbye after almost two years had left me alone and broken. To be one hundred percent honest i was scared. She was my only security and i dont know what i was going to do without her. I knew i had to get her back. I was sure of that. But i didnt know how. I didnt have the slightest clue how. I was still in the shocked phase. The numb phase where the world is blocked out. I was going mad.

My tears rolled down my cheeks like a leaking pipe. They wouldnt ever stop until i had Lennon to patch up my soiled heart. All the memories we had were down the drain and all i had left were my thoughts. Though they were eating away at me. I wanted to hold her in my arms again and tell her i love her and needed her forever. That wouldn't happen. That wouldn't ever happen. Although i refused to believe, i somehow had to. After almost hours of laying in bed, a banging awoke me.

"What the hell,"

Gemma's POV

"Harry, open up! " i called.  

He had been in a rut ever since Lennon had left. I was guilty for not telling him why my best friend suddenly disappeared. I knew he couldn't find out, or else he would have a rage spree. Angry Harry is the worst Harry and i didn't want him to come out. I knew it wasn't soon until he would get out of the numb phase. I wasn't ready for that, neither was anyone else.

After what seemed like hours of standing i finally looked up to see Harry. His curls were spread across his sweaty forehead and it looked like he hadn't showered in days.  

I couldn't bear to talk about it because it would somehow lead me to open my big mouth about Lennon.

I was sad to see my brother like that, especially when i knew what really happened.

Harry's POV

I opened up my door to find Gemma standing there with a bowl of soup. I couldn't even stomach to look at it. I felt i was going to throw up everything.

Ever since Lennon left Gemma had been coming around more often. It was weird, but i didn't question it.

She pushed her way in and asked me how i was.

"How have you been holding up?"  

" To be completely honest i am a mess. I have no direction and i dont know what t-to do, Gem" 

Before, i thought i could handle it, but no. I broke down right in front of Gemma. I was more than a mess. I was in absolute shit. I dont know what i could have possibly fucking done for Lennon to leave me  

"Why," i cried out to Gemma  

She started to squirm uneasily in front of me when my back involuntarily slid down the wall. I was confused scared and broken. Why was she acting that way?

I felt bad for lashing out, but i couldn't help it. 

"Why the fuck are you uneasy?! Is your heart so fucking broken into a million pieces you start to question your whole fucking existence?"  

"Huh? Gemma?! Is it?

She remained quiet.

"Fucking Answer Me!"  

My voice boomed and i knew she was scared by her shaking.  

She knew better than to say anything back.

Gemma's POV

I was so guilty. So so guilty 

I was keeping so many things from my brother.

I was scared. I knew he was angry and that scared me.  

I had no clue what i was doing or where i was going with my lies. There was one thing i was for sure of. He couldn't find out about Ed. Or else 

His whole life would be a lie.