21 days to move on

Chapter 1 - The Beginning

FLASHBACK

"Sorry Ly, pero I dont think this relationship is working anymore."

"H-ha? What do you mean? We love eachother and thats what matters, don. Please." I said as tears were becoming visible in my eyes.

"Lelay, I can't feel any love anymore. I feel numb whenever I am with you." And in that moment, I knew I was broken. I knew that I was hurt. All of a sudden, my knees became weak and all I want to hear right now are answers..

I hugged him from behind and hugged him tightly, "Don, what did I do wrong? Have I done something wrong? Please, tell me.. I need you.. I need us. Answer me!"

I felt his arms shaking my hands off his back and with the strength he had, I felt my body lying on the floor, sobbing.

"Sometimes, Ly, we have to let go of the things who are slowly killing us. I was killed by you, Ly. You didn't know because I was hiding it all these years. I was pained. I want to be free, Ly, but I couldn't. I was jailed by you."

I was still lying on the floor, thinking, then I immediately wiped the tears off my eyes, "Are you trying to say that I'm killing you? All I ever did was to love you, Don! And this is what I get in return? Getting accused by someone whom you just gave your everything? I am disappointed. I loved you. Why do you want to break up with me? Why? Tell me right now, do you love someone else?!"

It took time for him to answer. Tears were continuously flowing.

And the next thing I knew, I was crying harder when I heard him answered, "Yes.."

I felt a pang in my heart by just hearing the word. My eyes are swollen and my hands were shaking badly. My hands are now wet because of too much crying. Did I hear it right? He loves someone else? All this time, I was just loving him for nothing?! I felt infuriated. All I ever did was to make him happy...

I felt him kneeling infront of me then placed his hands onto my shoulder, "But I did love you. Don't ever think of it the other way around. There are just things that we need to let go in order for us to be free --"

"Don't" I said. He was about to help me stand up but I refused.

"W-why? You need my hand. C'mon, stand up."

I slowly stood up and said, "I can stand up for my own, I can live in my own and ofcourse, I can live without your presence."

I walked pass him and I realized something, he was right. Maybe it was the right time to let go. It's time to let go of what we had, but I don't think my heart can do it. I love him, but he loves someone else. Life can be a total b-itch for doing this to me. Brandon was too kind, too gentle. I appreciate him for telling the truth, it was better than knowing that he's loving two women at the same time. I am deeply and madly hurt.

That feeling when you are willing to do anything just for that certain person. That is what I am exactly feeling right now. Painful but I must do it. The said, whatever the heart desires, you must obey and follow it. Even if it hurts the most. That's what you call love. It's giving and taking.

I stopped myself from walking then spoke, "Thank you for the memories Brandon." and I left the door open.

END OF FLASHBACK

"Condolence, Lelay."

The exact line people are saying while they're walking in my direction. Can't help but cry even more. I continued eating my bread.

"R.I.P to your soul who just died."

My bestfriend, Kimpoy, said. I groaned in disappointment. Tears escaped my eyes and I cried once again.