I Should've Been Happy

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I can still remember the very first time we met. I can still remember how you worked so hard just to hear me say "yes." I can still remember how you tried to swallow your pride just to talk to me. I can still remember how you fantasized you and me, together. Where did it all went wrong? How would everything we've been fighting for so long be shattered... broken? I gave you everything that I had just for you to be happy. I thought you were the last, the one that I've been searching for so long. I was completely destroyed by one thing, watching you turning your back and say, "I give up." You promised me right?! that you won't! that you wouldn't dare to leave! because you loved me! you told me that! I was all wrong. You're a good player when it comes to your favorite sport, basketball. I even did everything just to be there, just to witness every game, knowing that my Mom would slap me the moment I get come home. I have always rooted for you, because I love you. People told me that, "there are plenty of fish in the sea," but why did I fell for someone like you? For someone who couldn't appreciate the things that I do? The time I spent just to see him happy? The sweat that I ignored just to see you with no one blocking my sight? The tears that I wiped just to let you know that I'm a strong lady, and I can handle the worse? Why do you always make me sad? Why do you always make me feel worthless? Why can't you appreciate the things that I did? The answer to every questions is that, I was never you, and you were never me. I loved you from the very start. You loved me after knowing that. I was always there when you needed me, you never were. I even supported you, but you doubted me.
All of these was just to see you happy. You were my priority and I was just an option. I should've loved someone else. I should've been there for someone else. I should've been happy with someone else. I should have.