why did my only kids leave me? was it because im a bad father ? was it because im not selfless enough to make them want to stay ? was i not a good example to them? why did they leave me? even Natalie wonders sometimes why they left . shes not acting selfish but i am. why i cant i have acted like her when they transferred . i should have acted selfless not selfish. i should have acted better . i shouldn't care that they transferred for my faction tells me so. but i do care . why shouldn't i care . our nest is now empty . Caleb has betrayed us. so has Beatrice . but Beatrice chose dauntless . ill think shell make it there. but Caleb choose erudite . hes a traitor . erudite and abnegation hardly ever get along erudite release reports about every abnegation government official including me. how dare they say i beat my children i am selfless why would i do that. they said that marcus beat his son tobias and thats why he left . that couldnt be true could it . i mean he dosent seem like he would hurt a fly yet alone his son . they have no right to publish ththese reports. there false. there just trying to get our government . there greedy power hungry people. society should be run by people who dont care about power . who dont care about themself like abnegation not eruidite . i used to be eruidite i hated it . me and natile transferred here together to escape it not to consume more of it . i miss the days when our factions got along. now where at each others throats for power . running the government is our only job other than feeding the factionless . erudite has jobs as teachers . they accus of taking extra food when all we do is feed the factionless . i just want our factions to get along.
