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Everyone of us had its own fears. Even the bravest among the brave or even the strongest man you think is, had also fears and weakness in life. Even Brian "strongman" Shaw is also afraid of something. And even me, that everyone thought that 'I fear no one', 'I fear nothing' has never been exempted.
I just want to share to you my secret. I am also a coward. I have lot of list of greatest fear in life. I'll share to you one. As a student, I'm afraid to fail, I'm afraid to be insulted and being look down and criticized by someone, especially at school. And for me, to passed that cowardliness, I need to achieve the best side of being a student which is, you need to passed all the tests, quizzes and exams. But that wasn't easy, to achieve that goal, you need to struggle first, you'll feel headache, you'll feel tiredness and don't forget to count those sleepless night. But everything has an end. Even that cowardliness of yours. And even its unbelievable, my fear, before, during and after exam or test was all gone with just a blinked of an eye. And because of this person who suddenly became part of my life.
~Throwback......~
It was our long quiz in our Geometry subject when I first saw you. Having difficulties in answering that questionnaire made my head turn and look outside the window to find some answer in the air. As I was looking outside the window and remembering the right formula, you suddenly passed by, looking straight to my eyes while smiling at me. At first, I felt nothing because I'm so worried for my test. But I just realized something shameful when I saw you again after class smiling at me AGAIN. Weird. I was confuse and bother that day about your action. A stranger who just passed by in our room gives me goose bumps but I just let that things run in my stem for just that day. The next day, everything is okay like nothing happen. And the next and next and next day, I never saw that guy again.
Days goes by, and tomorrow is our first day of examination. My fear to fail for this 3rd period pushes me to study hard and prepare for tomorrow. This struggles of studying lot of lesson makes me feel haggard. Hoping for the examination to be easy as one plus one.
~Examination Day~
I'm now ready for this day. Ready yet nervous. Our proctor give us the test questionnaire. While she was giving that to us, I was looking around inside and outside the room, to ease this kind of nervousness I felt, when you suddenly passed by again. Looking at my eyes straight and smiling widely at me. Those smile looks like your telling me 'I can do it'. And honestly speaking, my nervous was gone, excitement replace it. I felt happy and I noticed the smile forming in my lips.
"YOU MAY START ANSWERING"
I answer my test questionnaire confidently. I finish my exam with full of positive vibes that I can pass that test. That was the first time that I never felt pressure during the test. Maybe because I study last night or maybe because of that guy. I don't know!
As I was walking with my friends in the hallway I saw you again not so far from me. You were with your friends talking and laughing like there's no tomorrow. Then I think you noticed our presence cause you look to our direction (But Duh! Anyone can notice a group of student that are so noisy, talking so loud like were talking far from each other). Then you stop laughing and look at me straight to my eyes and smile again. And I'm still not unto it, so I look so confuse but not so obvious. Ever since that day everything has change.
I look for you every each day and every break time. I only saw you during exams, quiz and long quiz. I never saw you during ordinary days. Maybe because we have different schedules. I always saw your friends but there's no you. Ever since, I'm always been excited whenever the exam is near, cause I know I'll see you again. Since then, I'm not afraid anymore during exam, cause I know when I see you, I will remember everything. And no worries to follow. You know what!? Sometimes I ask myself, why do I need to look for you? Maybe I already had a crush on you. Or maybe you just gave me some sort of happiness or inspiration to study a little harder. I just don't know.
