the life i have lived

hi so this is basically going to be a bit of everything, a story, poems, and some things about my life. I hope you like it.

it started six and a half years ago. my mom just kinda blanked out she left me and my sister mentally was there phiscally but not really there you know. I'll never forget the day it happened, my mom and dan sat earth gavin and myself down. they told us it wasn't our fault and that we would still be a family but not like we used to be.

gavin and dan moved into the play room, me and my sister stayed in the bedroom we had once shared with our step brother. my mom stayed in the master bedroom.

I was in third grade, they had been together since I was four. I was so confused. at the end of the year we moved into apartment D just three doors down, from the man who had been the only father I ever had.

mom started locking herself in her room, and going out clubbing in the middle of the night, leaving my with the phone to watch over my five year old little sister.

leaving us at the after school program till six then coming to get us leaving a can of soup on the counter for me to cook us dinner.

we spent Thursday nights at dan and gavin's house, we played guitar hero and made dinner together like we used to. gavin spent the night on Wensdays. mom would leave us to our own devices.

winter break of sitxth grade we got evicted because mom lost her job, we moved back into Dans house. all us kids thought maybe they were getting back together, but then dan met robin.

three days after my birthday we moved to a new apartment close to the city. it was a three story apartment which was fairly small. it was in a bad neiborhood, we heard at least five sirens a night. and it was really creepy.

as always we went to spend the summer with our granny and popop in florida, we told them what was going on and they tried to talk to her but she wouldnt listen.

when we returned home everything was settled. I started seventh grade at a new school coverds in graffti. it was much smaller than my last school, and a big difference from the mac computers I was used to.

that was the year things got worse. earths dad decided he wanted back in her life after not caring for eight years. he served mom with court papers stating earth had to spend every weekend and most holidays with him.

I no longer had someone there with me when my mother left to go clubbing. sometimes she would leave for days. that thanksgiving  she left for three days I woke up sick in the middle of the night puking. she had left no note the car was gone and she never answered her phone.

I never forgave her for that, never.