Her

Passage About A Girl-1

So i switched schools awhile ago, its not that bas but it has seemed to affect me. I dont really talk to anyone and I am pretty kept to myself. Until i met this one girl. Lets just call her Kaitlin. It started in math class, We got assigned seats to sit next to each other. She always asks if I am okay. I have the same answer most of the time. "Good". What else are you supposed to say anyways? Anyways, We became really good friends and we share stories of our past. But she has a boyfriend. And this unsettles me. The boyfriend lied to one of my friends about dating her. That makes me think he is a piece of shit manipulater. Kaitlin believes he is a 10/10. I think he is a 6/10. Hes nice, dont get me wrong, but hes a liar. I just cant help but blame myself for this. I couldve asked her out before she got a boyfriend. Of course though. When we were at my house (keep in mind she still has a boyfriend) she was leaving and She gave me hug before she left. And she was very quick to come in my arms. Long to leave. I look back on that day. Not just the hug but everything. The way she was with my Brother Logan (3) and the music she likes. The way she has fun. The way she laughed. Hell, even the way she walked. Not only was it mesmerizingly beautiful, but it was such an experience. To have someone in my house THAT amazing. Thats pretty amazing.
Even after all this. Even after i secede from hiding from my feelings. Why does it now seem like she doesnt care? Why now when i would bow down to her? I would honestly follow her to Hell, Fight satan, and with my dying body and dying voice put myself on top of her to protect her and say I love you. And Goddamn. I love her.