My New Life (Nathan Sykes Fan Fic)

You're Okay

Alexa's POV

I've never felt so alone and bored in my own life. I was laying down in bed not wanting to get up and deal with the curly haired boy in the other room. I looked at my phone to see it said 11:30am. Nathan and the rest of the boys were already up but I don't have a reason to be up. I closed my eyes hoping to fall back asleep then my wish was granted.

" Alexa." I felt some one say softly and shake me. Maybe if I just ignore him he'll go away.

" Alexa.... sweetie" I heard Nathan say I turned around and say him smiling down at me.

" Morning sunshine." he said.

" Morning what time is it?" I asked stretching.

" almost 1." he said chuckling. I only stay in bed like this when it's summer and I came home from a crazy party or when i'm kinda depressed.

" Oh.. wow." I said leaning on my forearms to hold me up.

" Yeah the boys and I need to go to venue real quick then we are going to go sight seeing." he said. I nodded my head and he put his hand on my knee.

" So you can stay here while we go to the venue then we'll come back and get you to come sight seeing" he said. I nodded my head then he walked out in to the front room. I just laid there until I hear them leave then I got up and saw Kelsey.

" Hey pumpkin." she said to me.

" Hi." I said getting something to eat and sitting next to her.

" So what do you want to do while the boys are gone?" she asked.

" Um I don't know but i'm going to get a shower. Are you going sight seeing with them?" I asked.

" Yeah I wouldn't leave you alone with all 5 of them." she said laughing.

" Thanks i'll be back." I said. I went and got changed then I grabbed a tan cami with a pair of ripped jeans with a black belt and flip flops. I straightened my long black hair and put on some eye linear and mascara. I walked out and saw the rest of the boys there once they saw me Nathan's eyes got real big with a smile.

" Alexa you ready to go?" asked Jay. I nodded my head then I followed the rest of the boys with Nathan behind me. I felt his hand gently rest of my back. We went into the van and I sat in the way back with Nathan. Right now we were in  Chicago, Illinois right now and we were trying around.

" I always loved this place." I said.

" What?" asked Nathan.

" I always loved it here." I said.

" You've been here before?" he asked. I nodded my head still looking at the beautiful city.

" I came here with my choir 2 years ago an ever since I come up with my friends for a week." I said.

" You sound like you really like it hear." he said smiling at me.

" I  do. I mean it's a place that actually helps me get away from my problems for a week." I said.

" Awe well if you ever need anything you know where you can find me." he said smiling. We pulled up to the baseball stadium one of my favorite sports. I was walking behind with Nathan. We walked in and it was amazing to stand on the field.

" You know I haven't been on baseball field in forever. It's my all time favorite sport." I said standing at home plate.

" Did you play at all?" asked Tom coming up to me.

" Yes I played 2nd base and outfield. I always loved those positions. I love going to the games too I just love watching all the families here with there kids it's just a wonderful feeling." I said.

" Well I guess we all gotta go sometime." said Tom. I nodded my head then I was standing at 2nd base.

" Hey Lexa!" I heard someone yell my old nickname. It was Nathan. " Let's see how well you play at 2nd and outfield." he said throwing a glove at me. I was stand at 2nd and we split up into two teams there were a lot of management people with us but on my team is was Nathan, Kelsey, Tom, Nano, and I. I was at 2nd and I got almost everyone out when I had the chance. When we switched I hit the ball and got a triples most of the time.

We ended up winning now we are at Gino's restaurant it is the best pizza I every at. It was Tom, Kelsey, Nathan and I in a booth. The same booth I was out the first time I came and I remembered we signed the seats. I looked on the booth and saw my friends name and I there. I smilied and traced my finger over the names and smiled on the inside.

" Alexa is that your name?" asked Tom. I nodded my head and held back a lot of tears that wanted to fall.

" Yep I remember this just like it was yesterday I wish I could go back I loved that moment." I said as a tear fell down my cheek.

" Um I going to go to the bathroom." I said getting up and walking to see my friends name which they written on the walls. Once I got into the bathroom I just let out a soft cry and tried to make it stop.

" Pull yourself together Alexa." I said wiping my tears it doesn't look like I cried and I walked back. I sat down next to Nathan and then we ate the pizza. Once it was time to go we went to the boys concert.

I sat in the back room with Kelsey while the guys preformed. When they came back I was so tired and just wanted to leave. Nathan came up and sat next to me.

" You did good." I said as I heard him when they were singing on stage.

" Thanks sweetie." he said. We walked back to the tour bus and I sat in the back with Tom and Nathan. I was just sitting down texting my friend Elissa. The next thing I know it was just me and Nathan in the back. I guess everyone went to sleep.

" Did you have fun today?" asked Nathan who was sitting across from me.

" Yeah I actually did. Brought back some good memories." I said.

" Well that's good." he said.

" Yeah I just miss them those we the best days ever. I miss my friends and brother." I said with tears in my eyes.

" Were those good friends that you had your name with on the booth?" he asked. I nodded my head and started to cry a little. I honestly don't know why I guess I just held in all my feelings that they are coming out in silly things.

" I just wish everything could go back to the way it was." I said crying. Nathan came over and hugged me.

" I know you do sweetie I know you do. I'm going to try and help you sweetie through everything. I never want to see you cry babe." he said rubbing my back.

" I just miss them so much." I said crying into him.

" I know baby I know." he said kissing my forehead.

" Come on" he said walking me to my bunk. I laid down and he climbed in with me. I cried softly into his shoulder.

" You're okay sweetie. You're okay." he said cuddling me into him.

Hopefully I will be okay but right now I am not.

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