Hi. I have at lot going on with my life. I really don't talk very much. Yet, I still have a lot of friends. But there are a lot of enemies who don't like me either. That's the whole reason that I turn kinda emo and depressed. Still, there are many other reasons too.
I haven't told my parents yet. I plan too soon, but just not yet.
All of my friends are trying to help, they are really supportive. I love them all. There's just some who won't let me be who I am. They would take my pictures and tell me to be happy. A bit of me questions if they are my friend, but thee other half says they're just playing. There's also another friend of mine who feels depressed , and I would do the same thing to her.
Sometimes my friends would tell me how amazing I am but, I still feel sad at the end. Still, I will always love them.
The reasons this whole thing started was because of the bullying, then it just progressed into more problems. My parents, not remembering, and the stress of school. Everything that I am is because of that.
My first reason, the stress level in school. It's not only the SOL's. They just all puut pressure on me. My other reason, my memory. I never can seem to remember things. Even if I study for a test, I'll end up not remembering a thing I studied for. My next reason, bulling. I've always been bullied based on my looks. Sometimes it turns into violence. I would stay quiet, put my head down, and put my arm on top of another. My last, my parents. They won't stop arguing and my mom keeps saying that they are getting a divorce. I cry every time I think about them even saying that.
Everyone has an effect on me. It's never a good effect. I just don't want to tell my family. Not just yet.
I make drawings based on my feelings but my friends usually rips them up. They want me to be happy but, I don't know how to do that anymore. My sister knows about my depression but, she promised to keep it a secret.
I don't think I could trust her.
But I'm trying to write stories that people are going to enjoy but I failed at the attempt.
I turned emo along with my depression. No one will longer except me for who I am. Some won't be my friend anymore.
I'm going to middle school next year. Bullying will become an even bigger problem.
