Ultimate Wish Day

11/11/11 11:11pm

I am writing this because I have to get something off my chest. Maybe I’ll tell you what that something is, maybe I won’t. It’s quite embarrassing really. So please don’t laugh if I let you in. Seriously, I’d never get over it. Yesterday I realized this something and it shook me to the core. Out of everything I’ve ever had, I don’t think anything has ever affected me on such a level as this. Useless as it is, I feel like I can only tell you, even though you’re the only person I can’t tell. But never mind, because maybe I’ll change my mind and not tell you. Especially if I think you won’t take me seriously. Can anything painful deserve a second chance? Also, would it even matter anyway? Unless something big changes soon- I don’t think I’ll ever really tell you what I have on my mind. See, life’s tough like that. Even when things are going well, something changes and you’re thrown into turmoil again. I hope you’re doing well by the way. Life can be cruel, but you seem to be good at the moment, if so, I hope you say that way. Often I think that I’m just having a spell of bad luck because things don’t seem to go my way much. Veritable change is needed in my life I think. Especially my study technique. You see, I should be studying for an exam, but I’m not. Oh no, I’m here writing a message that I might not end up telling you. Unfortunately, I think you’ll figure it out. And that might suck; it would certainly spoil my attempt at surprise or at least my attempt at being subtle. Never mind. Do you think I should tell you?  I’m not sure if I can. And more importantly, I don’t think you’d want to know. My, my, my, I’m making this so difficult for myself. So I don’t think I’ll tell you. Only, I’ve come so far. Really I think I should tell you now. Really I think I shouldn’t. You see, I’m going through a slight issue about this. I hope you’ll figure it out one day. Hopefully soon, then you can tell me what you think. Unless it’s bad, I don’t want bad news, tell me you don’t know what I mean if you figure it out and don’t like what I’m not telling you. Read my mind with caution, because you can’t unlearn things or undo things. That I learned the hard way. You have the chance to avoid that awful feeling if you just ignore my last sentence. Only, I think you’re curious now. Unless you want to know what I want to say, don’t read the first letter of each sentence in this passage...