Hi guys, this is just a little therapy session for me; wring out my feeling you know, try to make my self feel better. There is not going to be any information for m other books so you don't need to read this if that's why you're here.
Have you guys ever just felt less loved than some one you're close too? I recently entered a polyamorous relation ship and its been great fro the most part. Most things were divided equally. But with in the last week or two I think I did something wrong. First one of he boys in the relationship (one of my boyfriends) stopped talking to me out side of school about 2 weeks ago. I know he was alone for 3 years then he got pulled into a 4 way relationship, he can get overwhelmed easily so I let it go. Then my girlfriend stopped responding to me, I brushed it off as her being upset at me for "starting her period" by grabbing her stomach. Then the last boy, doctor/professor boyfriend as have called him in some chapters, talked to me very little this week. He said he was overy busy this week and I just said "ok, love you have fun" like I normaly do, I assumed he was busy. I was taking to my girlfriend and asked her if doctor boyfiend talked to her less this week. She said no, he talked to her the same amout if not more. Just to give you a idea, normal for her is maybe dubble what it is for me, maybe alittle less. I don't understand how he was busy if he was talking to her all the time if he was busy. I don't know what I did or why they all just stopped talking to me but it maks me feel so inferior to my girlfriend. I knew that I was loved less than her cause I've been loved for less time, but why talking to me so little or not at all? I can't talk t him about it cause he hasn' talked to me for more than a few minutes here an there, and then I'm just trying to et what ever amount of affection he is willing to give me. I don't always fell this unloved, this may happen for two or three days here an there but never for a week straight. Am I just being selfish, or over reacting? I don't really know what to do my relationship and home is quickly crumbling and I just don't know what I did.
Sorry about my rant, I just needed to get out my emotions in a way that isn't crying, I do that too much. Thanks for reading and listening to me be sad thank you.
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