Fluorescent Adolescent (On Hold)

Chapter 6

My heart had never beat faster and my limbs were shaking. I pushed out of Eric's arms and stepped away from him. Palms sweaty.

"H-h-ow..?" my voice was shaking and weak.

He shrugged, his face was contorted with unease and worry. I wanted to comfort him.

After a moment of thinking I realized that he still hasn't told me how he knew where to find me. We stood looking at each other, unmoving. I was using this time to steel myself for the question I was about to ask. I wanted to sound strong.

"You still haven't answered my question." I felt as if I was dreaming. I was so confused.

"Which one?" Eric's voice was tight.

"Why did you protect me? How did you know what was going to happen? Just tell me... please?" my heart continued to painfully hammer my chest, I felt as though it was going to break through my rib cage.

After another moment of calculating Eric opened his mouth. "I'm scared to tell you."

"Trust me." I murmured.

He sighed deeply. "I've never spoken about any of this to anyone. You need to understand that this isn't easy for me to open up like this. Just believe that I will never harm you, please don't be scared of me."

"I believe you."

He smiled slightly. Warming my heart. I smiled in return.

 

Eric's POV

"The angel side of me has a very strong will to protect, and I occasionally have premonitions. I usually ignore them because I don't know the people I see in them, but I had a vision about you being attacked and when I saw you at the party I knew I had to do something. I felt very protective of you and I wanted to keep you safe. I would have been there to help you the whole time if my friends hadn't have jumped me. I'm sorry I wasn't there." My heart ached in sorrow and guilt crept over my neck like little hot spiders.

Ruby's face was full of understanding and a little fear. I used my powers to try to help calm her. She sighed. "You only helped me because you had to, didn't you?" she avoided my gaze, but her face was pained.

Wait... what? Oh no. She misunderstood.

"No, no, no" I said quickly trying to rescue the moment, "That's not why. I did it because I wanted to."

"Whatever." She turned and walked away from me. I quickly grabbed onto her wrist. She spun around and yanked her wrist out of my grasp.

"Stop acting like you care Eric!" Every word was full of venom. I stood shocked.

"Ruby, please.." she didn't understand that I truly cared for her, I might even love her.

"No, Eric! You could have just left me, you don't have to be involved in my life if you don't want to! If you can't be bothered with me, then just leave! There's nothing worse than false love and right now I don't need your bullshit. You only did what you had to do, so now you can just forget about me. You've done your job, there's no need to hang around. I wasn't expecting anything from it." she sounded defeated.

She thinks I regretted saving her? Can she not see that I want to be involved in her life? This was infuriating.

"Ruby! Listen to me! I do not regret saving you! I genuinely care for you! And if you can't see that then you're blind." At this I disapparated into one of the near-by trees. I watched as she stood there shocked, tears rolled down her face, and guilt slapped me.

My anger continued to increase. I felt as though I was going to explode. The demon in me was trying to escape. He wanted to hurt her. My inner turmoil was causing me pain and confict. I clutched at my chest trying to hold back the blackness in my heart. I needed to disapparate again before I did something I actually would regret.