Fix Me

"Fifth time. In a month. This is your fifth time." My mom shrieked. "In a month!" Her astounded cries had been filling the room ever since I came home drunk this morning, around 5:00am.

Apparently she wasn't too happy with me.

I still hadn't completely sobered up and her ranting was not helping my developing headache. With each statement that rolled out of her mouth I rolled my eyes and looked around the living room. Andrew was obviously asleep, which was a good thing because I don't want him to have this bad influence on his life.

"What if Andrew was awake? He could've come down asking for you, and guess what? You're god knows where doing god knows WHAT while you're drunk. Do you-"

"Do not even think of dragging Andrew into this, you bitch!" I shouted. My eyes widened in shock and my mothers mouth simply went agape. My hands went up to my hair and raked through it. My strands were soft, but not as soft as when he used to be here. When I used to try.

"Go to your room." I went to object but she sent me a hard glare, a very familiar emotion in her eyes. Disappointment. "Get out of my sight. He turned you into a monster. Don't you see that?"

"No, mom. He opened my eyes. I see everyone for how they are now. He may have done a few things but... If it weren't for him I wouldn't be here. I would still be that delicate flower, the one who let people pick her and stomp on her. He would've won mom. He would've won." She scowled and glanced at me before looking at her folded hands.

"Sweetheart, he's already won." She turned to her room and left me standing in our living room astounded. No. He hasn't won. I won, I changed so that I wouldn't be able to have that happen to me again. I'm the one who won.

I slowly walked up the stairs. So many people thought I felt nothing but the tears staining my cheeks proved otherwise. My mother and my little brother meant the world to me. I wouldn't want to hurt them. Ever.

"Lo? Are you okay?" Andrew peeked his head out of his room and I smiled softly. His scowl remained as I gently pecked him on his forehead.

"I'm good little guy. We're good."

"I don't think so. First: I'm not little. Second: I heard you and mom downstairs. Lo, do you really think that you won? That you beat him at his own game?" My eleven year old brother questioned. I stared at him in confusion when his question dawned on me. My eyebrows shot up and I eyed him suspiciously.

He knew?

Just to be sure he wasn't copying my mother I played a quiz. "Who? Who are you talking about, Drew?"

"Jay, duh."

My pulse quickened and I felt my vision blur. I haven't heard that name in almost two months and yet it gives me this reaction. "Go to bed Andrew. And don't tell mom I left." I hesitated. "Okay?" My expression softened when I saw the sad look in his eyes. "I have to see someone, Annie. I won't be long." He chuckled at the nickname before hugging me expectantly. I immediately returned the hug before letting go.

My steps downstairs were silent as not to wake my mother. I closed the door as quietly as possible and quickly grabbed my iPhone and dialled that all too familiar number.

"Hello? Lova? Where you at, babe?"

I chuckled at Chase's words and it was obvious he was drunk by the way they slurred together. Great, this was made just that much easier.

"I need you. I need a distraction. Right now." There was a pause on the other line and a sound of a door being closed.

"Where are you? I can't get you. I'm a wee bit tipsy for that."

I laughed again, this one a wholehearted laugh. "It's okay. I'll just walk. Your house, right?" I could sense his smirk over the phone.

"Always. I'll see you soon."

And that, ladies and gentlemen, was my common Friday night.

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Sorry for a short first chapter I promise all my others will be longer(:

this was just an insight on what's happening with her like a prequel actually that's exactly what it is I should probably put that as The title..

btw for titles if it was, for example,
'My anaconda don't want none unless u got buns hun' then the title has nothing to do with the chapter.

i was probably just feeling that song.

if it were to be, for example, ' "I love you, and I will never stop loving you." ' note the quotation marks indicating that it's a quote from the book

Mkay thx for sticking with the long A/N those of you who did:))