Song of The Day

Soap-Melanie Martinez

<Analyzation Coming Later>

Monday, May 23, 2016

The Story

This one's short and sweet, and has some  bad words near the end.

"Well, hey, listen, it's not my fault that she hates me," I wave my hands in gestures. 

"Isn't it because you had something a few years ago?" Kylie questions me, raising an eyebrow. I've always been quick to speak, and it's a faulty virtue of mine. 

"Well, that wasn't my fault. It was her mistake using my phone to text someone like that. It resulted in death!" Something inside my heart drops. 

"Rosa, you can't blame her, you did stop talking to her entirely,"

"Still not right for her to sabotage me," I feel a little anger burning in my throat. Lately everything's got me boiling, especially after the newscast about Jamie. No matter how much I chide myself and say it's not my fault, there's still something about it that unsettles me. My walls have all crumbled down, and there's nothing left to keep me from spilling. It's kind of sad, really. Regret still fills me, I know that it would have been nice to be in that friend group. Even though I don't care about being one of the 'Populars' it still has something that rubs up against me and tugs, as if they want me to be their's, and something about it makes me want to leave too. But having three friends is just fine, I don't need the fifteen that are about as shallow as a pond. 

"You're just mad because he's dating Jeremy."

"Hey! Watch it!" She glares at me. It's a sensitive subject and I always prod at just the wrong moments. 

"Sorry," I shrivel in on myself. 

"It's fine, just don't mention it again."

"Anyway," I take a drink of my coffee. It's getting watered down, the sun is so hot that the ice is melting really fast, and the plastic is starting to sweat in my hand. "It's never actually my fault. I'm always just in the wrong place at the wrong time."

"Yeah, that's kinda true."

"What do you mean 'kinda'? She's a bitch and you know it too." I'm suddenly running down a hill with my words, and the sink is filling up. Oh god. I know I'm rolling, and the speed is too quick to stop. "She made me lose the one friend that I had, and not only that, I can't even fix it. You know why? The entire world thinks that I said those bitchy words to her, and it's not like the newscasters can say hey it was another person let's all blame it on her. People are always blaming me and it's not my fault that she was being petty and jealous. Everything's smoothing over and it's all piling up on me. It's not my fault that she's a prissy-"

"Hi, Rosa." I turn around and see red eyed Kira. Oh god. "Nice to know you still hate me." She laughs sadly, before a girl with pretty waves glares at me. 

"Fuck," I whisper, as Kylie, wide eyed, dashes away. A cloud dashes over the sun, and I'm left alone. 

Oh my god I'm losing everyone again.