dolan twin imagines .

pills & potions |g|

(listen to the song 'pills n potions' by nicki minaj for a better vibe)

[your pov]

my throat burned as i downed shot after shot until i got to a total of eight. i quickly got up, stumbling over my feet and went to the living room of the strange house i was in. i sit in the circle of pot heads and wait for the blunt to be passed my way.

when it reaches me, i take the blunt between my two fingers and hit it. as i felt the smoke fill my lungs, i begin to cough.

"you okay babygirl?" a slightly older man asks me.

"aye she's fresh meat, better be careful hun." a girl shouts to me.

my mind begins to spin and everything starts to look fuzzy. next thing i know, i'm grinding on a guys lap and he's kissing my neck.

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i wake up on the floor of a strange house and next to me is a bag of weed. i stand up and fix my tight dress and then pick up the weed. i stash it in my bra and slip on my heels by the stairs.

i call an uber and get the same driver i always do. this whole party and get high/drunk thing is repetitive and daily. 'big rob' drops me off at my home and i thank him.

i walk into my small apartment and head straight for my kitchen. i grab some water and walk back into my living room and sit on the couch. i pull the weed out of my bra and roll it into a blunt.

i get my lighter and begin to smoke it. i feel my worries start going away and i down a couple pills. i'm finally high. someone all of a sudden comes barging into my apartment and grabs the pills from my hands.

"what the hell?! i need those dude! get out!"

"y/n, you cannot just let your life waste away like this. you need to move on from me!" he says while taking the blunt from my hand and doing away with it.

realization hits me and i notice that the someone who took my blunt is grayson dolan. my ex boyfriend who left me because he found someone else.

"just go away" i say, on the verge of tears

"y/n, you need to eat! and you can't get high and drunk to stop the pain all the time! it's not good for you."

"maybe i'll die eventually, it's not like you'll care anyways." i reply while looking away from him.

i feel the couch next to me sink in and someone touch my shoulder.

"don't ever say that please. you know i care about you... so so much. and-"

"don't even go there. you left me. you left me just when i thought you would stay and be there" i say, cutting him off in a snappy tone.

"you know why. i wasn't happy y/n. it wasn't fair for me."

"well, you promised forever! i'm so angry but somehow i still love you! i overdose, get high, and drunk because it takes the pain away!" i yell with my voice cracking between every word.

"i feel betrayed and hurt. every pill i pop is for you. i sleep around with random guys at random parties because i miss and want your touch. you don't love me anymore grayson. god, i can't even bare to look at you. just leave unless you plan on being with me again." i continue while struggling to speak, sobs leaving my mouth.

i continue to cry as he kisses my forehead and gets up without saying a word. he opens the door, looks back at me while quietly whispering a "sorry" and leaves. he's leaves me.

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a/n: this was so sad and depressing :/ i hope you enjoyed it anyways! i'm trying to update once a day but it'll be better once school is out.