What you've done to me </3

 Don't anyone judge me ok? These were and are true feelings I had when my boyfriend left me for some older girl I was terribly hurt and I want you to see how bad he'd hurt me.

You obviously don't get it do you? You honnestly don't.*sigh* So you're wanting me to wait for a year, for you, when there really isn't a high percentage of me even able to get you back by then you could be so close to her that you can't leave her or she could be having your baby. Momma said that I should and just, need to delete you from my heart, my mind, from my Facebook, Gmail, Yahoo, and from my life ignore you when you call, text, or message me on here I don't know what I want to do. I'm still sitting here debating if I should listen this time,instead of pulling what I did last time. My father and Kerina are back together after a month that they been seperated. Reminds me of two people,that I know well.Almost about everything reminds me about you. Like today this song I don't know what it's called but it told me exactly how I felt, kinda like I wrote a song about how it was with you and how it all went down the drain. Just like my screan saver on my laptop, "In a moment, everything can change."

Only if I could go back and make things right and just change my reply to dustin I should've shook my head no instead of shaking it yes when Dustin asked me if I liked you I should've just said no.

Nothing is ever going to be the same the I don't even want to evan go to the Fallfestival and I go every year and I might not go for Erik and suport him in the paraide at the end if he wins King. Going to the movies wont ever be the same. Living, living will never be the same. Friends might try to help heal me but there's no point in trying because it's not doing anything but making me think of you. Pain, is all I feel now I wanna be me again before all of this happend. The only thing I like to do now is ethier go deep in the country alone and swing feeling the fall's cold air against my face and through my hair , and also when I'm alone anywhere that doesn't remind me of you. Losing you was the hardest thing I've gone through in my whole life, not even telling my dad.

"Good-bye Daddy I love you promise me you'll come back and to me and play I love you alot Daddy!*kisses him through the gate of the airport before he lifted of to serve our country*All thoses nights I worried if he'd get home the way I seen him the day I let him go. I just wish things were the same back to the way it was before it all changed. Friday 9/30/11 on the bus for the first time since gosh I don't know. Waiting up there at Reitz for the High Schooler's. Tony told me he'd sit with me as soon as he got on he sat by his brother Noah two seats infrount of me and to the right. I must've said something and then Tony dropped the conversation he was having with Noah about Noah's reportcard and all Tony did as look up and stare up and me his mouth dropped and he didn't blink for a little bit. Finally got up and sat with me. He joked/flirted around with me it made me smile and laugh. Then every once in a while he'll stop and just stare and smile at me.

"Hey am I still shorter than you or am I a little taller Kirsten?"Tony asked me.

"I don't know lets see”I said laughing.

Standing up face to face exact highth. He chuckeled and I smiled it felt good to see him.

"You're hands are still soft."He said with a smile as he took my hands into his.

"Yea"I said with a faint smile as I just look down at are hands reminding me of us. . . I held back the tears I tilt my head back and blinked then they were gone. I looked at him with my glasses off and once again Tony stared into my eyes and mouth slowly slipping to drop. He took his off to clean them and I looked into his hazle eyes smiling. He smiled back, before he got off I stood up with him he pulled me close and he whispered.

"Felt good to see you again Kirsten, it's been so long." Tony told me as he hugged me.

"Yea I know Tony you too!" "I missed you." I told him with a smile upon my face. He told me as he tighted his hug, and let go to leave.