over the years that troye has known connor, he has studied each of his smiles a thousand times. he has different smiles for different people, troye discovers. he has an almost happy smile for his mother and his father, who expect too much of him. he has a bored smile for his teachers, who do not care about his smiles. he has a happy smile for tyler oakley, who notices only the smiles for himself and for their teachers. he has an entertained smile for bethany, who does not notice that this smile is different than his other smiles.
(if troye could see the smile that connor has for him, then he would know that it is a vibrant and an excited and a happy and an alive smile.)
(the smile that connor paints on for bethany is not a vibrant smile.)
troye's favorite smile is the one that connor paints when no one is looking, when the world is quiet around him and there are only his favorite things. (troye does not realize that he is one of those favorite things.) he likes the way that the corners of his lips tip upwards and the way that he eyes go from sea foam to ocean over coral. he likes the way that connor bites his lip to keep from laughing and the way that the white of his shark teeth glimmers against the red of his vampire lips. troye is very much in love with connor's smile.
troye is so, so, stupidly in love with connor's smile, and hurts. it hurts and bruises and burns like a child hurts and bruises and burns when they fall to concrete arenas. it screams and aches and wants in the same way that a drowning man needs oxygen.
troye touches (presses into; lightly whispers his presence against the shoulders of; pushes himself away from) connor when he smiles and that only widens the boy's grin. it seems as if the world's colors become more vibrant when troye is there.
connor smiles and troye's heart skips a beat. connor does not notice that troye takes a deep breath and counts to fifteen before letting himself smile back. fifteen seconds feels like nothing to a fool who only sees the world the way he wants to.
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watchful eyes (tronnor)
Fanfictiontroye is in love with connor. connor is not in love with troye. [lowercase intended] [originally titled "the watchful eyes of the lovers and the fools"] [tw: allusions to abuse; homophobia] [COMPLETED]
