Looking into the mirror I see a female
Physically yes but mentally no not really
You see growing up I never wanted to be one of the girls or fit in with the girls I always wanted to be with the guys play basketball trade cards never really wanted to wear the type of stuff the other girls wore.
Growing up I always had a differant feeling around girls didn't understand it because I was to young.
As I get older I understand things better I refuse to wear dresses skirts or anything considered girly, I hate being in bikini just doesn't feel right I dont like wear in tight clothes because of my breast,I dont really like them either.
Seeing and feeling are two completely differant things. I see a female looking into a mirror but inside im nothing like a girl I don't like girl things I like guy things.
Being that I feel differant, I've decided that I want to look the way I feel I should.
Theres people that support me and some that won't. I dont mean to upset anyone or disappoint anybody at all.
Soon there will be a big change in my life. Im going to start testosterone im going to become a boy! I'm doing what I think I should to make me who I feel like I am.
Most girls walk around and they see another female and think I wish I looked like her or had her body or had something, me, I dont do that I look at guys and wish I looked like them.
I hope that what im doing changes my life in the best ways possible. To anyone I hurt in the process I am so sorry but this is what I want.
My mind is held high on this situation I'm scared that I will lose people which I may, but theres certain people I dont wanna lose in the process. Im just now getting to know my biological father hopefully I dont mess that up.
I'm doing what I feels right and making a change that i think im ready for. I hope that my friends amd family stand by me as this is hard for my family and friends as well, its harder on me than people may think. Im the type of person who thinks about everyone else. So in the process of doing this im thinking about everyone I may be hurting and it hurts me too.
