I feel like I've done something wrong.
But at the same time, I don't know what to choose.
This hesitation and longing is what's holding me back.
And I know that now, though I think I have known for a long time.
I need to look ahead and not behind,
I need to learn to look up and not down,
I need to accept what's in front of me and not what I am faced with.
I tell myself to be confident though I am always the one who finds comfort in the shadows.
I tell myself to not get discouraged but there is always that one small flicker of doubt.
Sometimes it gets to a point where I just simply don't know.
I don't know if I want to, if I should.
There are a lot of things I don't know, things I don't understand, things that I haven't figured out, and some part of me tells me that that's ok.
