My mind is absent from my head
But its as heavy as a ton of lead
I just gave up hope
I bungee jumped with no rope
I've been throwen into a dark abyss
With everything I left behind amiss
I don't know what to think
So I mark my body with ink
But its a better way of release
Then to take a blade to my body's peace
And suddenly I just stopped caring
And murdered the fake smiles I was sharing
Became distant with people that didn't care
And let my friendships die, gasping for air
And this is what its like everyday
And my only question is, why am I the one that has to pay?
-S.J.
