Go Easy

Easy || XVI

-Go Easy-
-First Book-

Amber

The universe doesn't like me much, because its been a year. And i haven't seen him since. It didn't bother me though. because i've moved on. I wasn't in pain anymore. I stopped crying, i stopped wondering, i stopped asking. It felt good to be back to my old self again.

I wouldn't deny it, i still think of him sometimes. How is he doing, is he eating right, where is he, is he alive, does he think of me.. I was very curious of his state.

Is he still fucking breathing the same air or is he 10 feet below the ground now?

I guess i'll never know. But i wouldn't cry nor feel sad about not knowing how he is. Throughout my healing, i had been asking myself, why am i crying over him? Why am i feeling this way? Why does it hurts so much? Everyday. I had been asking myself that everyday until one day, i was reminiscing, looking at the photo of him i took on my phone. It was a picture of him sleeping with his arms around me. It was the time when i was at bedrest for a week and he slept next to me the whole week. I was smiling while tears falling down on my face as i looked at him sleeping through my phone. He had a little smile on his face when he sleeps. Its like he's always dreaming about things that makes him happy. I loved his lips so much. And his beautiful blue eyes and his tall 6 foot and 2 inches height. Even his assholeness sometimes. It was cute. Being an asshole suited him. His brown hair, the way he ran his hands on it, his mole on the upper right of his lips that suited him so much. He wasn't the most handsome person, but he was for me. I loved everything about him. Then all of a sudden, i dropped my phone as i realized something.

I was in love with him.

I was so stupid not to realize it sooner. But it didn't matter anymore. I have a great caring boyfriend who loves me and about to come pick me up in about 30 minutes.

I hated him. He left me all of a sudden. He was the reason why i couldn't sleep at night. He was the reason why my eyes were so red that i looked like i have sore eyes. He was the reason i was in pain.

But i've moved on and i forgave him.

My phone buzzed and i looked down on my palm to see Paolo, my boyfriend calling me. I answered the call and i placed my phone beside my ear. "Hey baby." I said while smiling.

"Hey baby. Listen I'm sorry i wouldn't be able to pick you up. My car wont start and i have to bring it to a repair shop to fix it. I'll also be late for about an hour or 2. Im sorry baby." He said and i sighed.

"No its okay. I'll see you there?" I asked. "Yeah. I need to go now. I love you." I muttered an i love you too before hanging up and standing up, wearing my open toe 4 inch nude heels.

I guess i'll call a cab today.

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End of chapter 16!
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