A Mother's Guilt

prologue

A/n: this is my second book.There will be harsh words used and vilonce. Hope you all like it.
Fight on warriors

I was a decent teen. I had all B or B+ grades in school, the only clases i strughled with was global with Mr. Adams. He was to vage with giving us homework or any tyoe of assignment. I always worried about how I looked, how my hair was, length, color. A lomg with how much makeup I had on. Mother was... um... different. Is the best way to put it. She had been married 3 times. There were 5 of us in the house. My older brother Cole, my older sister Megan, and my two younger siblings Nathan and Arianna. They we all have different last names. Cole's last name was Mathews. Megan and I had the last name Saville. And Nathan and Adrianna had the last name Clide. I was st he middle child so I was like the mother to Nathan and Adrianna, mom never came out of here room, unless it's to go to the bathroom located on the other end of the apartment. She would always yell at us if we couldn't clean up after ourselves, or no do chores. She had gotten more delusional when Megan started dating Brad. She would turn the grounding from 1 week to 2 months or more depending on what we had done. I was the first to get the punishment of 2 months because I stayed out to late with Lance. I had to be driven home by the police because he had been drunk and was talking about having sex with every girl he could get his hands on. The police took him to questioning due to the fact he was only 18 and drunk. He was so stupid, but I loved him.
I had returned home to find my mom yelling at Megan to get out of the house, she stayed she never wanted to see her again. Megan was the most important figure to our family, that's when Cole stepped in.
" Why the f*ck would you kick Megan our she is the most motherly figure to us besides Shelby. Heck I'm surprised u even know our names, you've been cooped up in you room all day doing god knows what!" Cole looked dead into our mothers eyes. Wow it thought to myself. He could become a lawyer, that is if he can get threw the last year of law school. Then I saw what I wish I wouldn't have to ever see in my life. Cole shot to be more precise, on the floor. " Now either you get out of my house or you'll be in hell with you shit head brother. Get out of my house!" Megan just went to her room and grabbed a suit case. I'd quest she'd been expecting this to happen because it only took her 5 minutes to get out of the house.
I turned to the body laying lifeless on the floor. Mom had already started to clean the gun when she heard sirens pull up to the drive way. " That son of a bitch! Shelby get to your room and stay there until I say so." I looked at her blankly. "Now!" She yelled causing the police to bust in the door.