Save her ... (On hold)

Save her ...(Not going to finish it anymore... sorry)

Chapter 1

As the blade lays on her wrist waiting to kiss her skin. She starts to think of all the things that went wrong and what is bringing her hurt as the images fill her mind she presses the blade in and it kisses her skin as a bright red liquid tickles down and she goes in deeper and deeper till she knows she shouldn't keep going she stops and the red liquid just drips down her skin. She wipes off the blood and she watches more blood come out and she keeps doing this until no more blood comes running down she cuts a little more and watches the blood running down. She wipes it off lays the cotton ball over it and wraps the gauze over it and she starts cleaning she gets all the cotton balls with blood and throws them away at the bottom of the trash then she gets alcohol and cleans the razor of blood and puts it back in the box for safe keeping until she needs it again. She lays in bed and falls asleep ....

My phone rings; waking me up I grab my phone I wince at the pain on my wrist and then I remember what I have done. It was a text from Aiden. My name is Kristy I'm 16 and I go to St. Angeles its a regular boarding school but I came home last night because I had to get away anyways I am a sophomore, I have blue highlights straight hair and green eyes. Aiden is my ex-boyfriend but I still love him, I'm crazy about him and I still care about him. We stayed good friends which I am glad. I read the text my vision was still blurry I was still tired. "lol how?" I forgot I was waiting for him to text back when I feel asleep. I checked the time it was 2: 38am no wonder I was still sleepy I have to wake up in 3 hours. I replied to his text and we continued texting at 2 in the morning and we had school too. I waited five minutes and he didn't reply and I went back to sleep. This time my alarm woke me up I turned it off and went back to sleep but five minutes later I woke up to a text from Aiden so I decide to get up before I over sleep saying in my head while getting up "Another day, another day trying to survive lets put a smile and fool everyone lets throw out a few laughs and let them believe, lets show them some good times and help them out lets make them believe the old Kristy is back, but how do I get rid of the look in my eyes? They are an open book and it tells you something different." I was in the bathroom already taking a shower as I got out I got a text back from Aiden we continued texting while I got ready.

I brushed my teeth, put clothes on, fixed my hair, straighten my bangs, etc. All while Aiden was on my mind. I was looking for a bracelet when I found the razor I grabbed it and decided to use it before school be easier to act out the day I reopened the cut from last night it started bleeding I used cotton balls to wipe it off then I put one over wrapped gauze over it. Just as I got another text from Aiden I replied. As I was about to put the razor back I decide to take it with me I put it in my wallet, cotton balls too and alcohol swabs. In my wallet just in case I need a release at school to keep me going.

I was out the door and I met Kyle and Dylan in front of my house. They also came home last night we try not to come home a lot but sometimes we just have too so to get back to school we take a bus well we walk to the bus stop talking about our days yesterday and how they went. It was only Tuesday and I was already tired funny how just a while ago I use to be so happy to get to school that I couldn't wait and now I am just so tired of EVERYTHING!! I am tired of faking, I am tired of EVERYONE! I just want to sleep maybe why would it matter if I am gone no one will care anyways I got nothing anymore no one will notice if one day I just disappeared. I haven't heard anybody say they cared in awhile so I guess no one cares anymore and I don't care. I only heard one person ever care but not anymore they stopped so what does it matter. I push the thought out of my head but I knew it was still there. I knew it was there waiting I wonder how long until it becomes more then a thought. When it would become a choice. As I thought about that the bus came.

We got to the school, I stepped out the bus oh how I wanted to get home already I walked with Kyle but then I saw Eric and I went to go talk to him. Eric is Aiden's best friend hes cool he makes me smile but not my real smile, he makes me smile the fake one but without me having to try to bring it up. We hugged. "hey whats up? " I asked. "Nothing just waiting for my girl. What about you?" I looked at him and answered "nothing just tired." He looked into my eyes I wonder what he would think if he knew what I meant by being tired. I wonder what anybody would think if they knew what I meant by being tired. He was looking into my eyes I wonder if he knows I am lying. I smiled just to fool him and then Aiden came. Aiden and Eric did the guy handshake then Aiden hugged me. We started talking about meaningless stuff then Eric's girl came and they started kissing then the bell rang. Aiden and me left and we walked and then we separated he kept walking and I went to see the guys, the group I hang out with.

Adam hes my best friend I love him, hes like a brother to me, hes in a band Red Explosion . There is Bryan hes also my best friend hes like a brother but lately I haven't felt close to him at all. It hurts me so much he used to be the one I go to for everything we used to be attached at the hips, but not anymore ever since he started going out with Carla. I lost him as a best friend but no matter how much I tell him he never fully hears me and I hate it so much because then he doesn't understand how much it hurts to have lost him the way we were before. I start to wonder if he ever misses me and the amazing times we had. Keith is one of my close friends, He went out with my best friend sorta sister Juliet. He has amazing eyes the color green. There is also Ian hes in the band Red Explosion with Adam. Adam plays bass and Ian plays guitar I'm close with him too. He was my first kiss anyways, hes hot and I love his hair its awesome. Then there is Ethan he is one of my close friends also and he plays drums for Red Explosion. They are really good and I love there songs its only them three in the Band and they are all hot. There are more people but you'll see them later.