Being one sided in love is painful? Right Yasu. I mean you know that too after all you harbor strong feelings towards Nana.
I don't know since then but I've loved him since a long time ago evsn before he started to Date Reira and was always beside him even if he saw me only as his little sister and nothing more. Being just bear him was enough for me but eventually the ache in my heart begun to spread making it unable to spent time with them. I have to move on and live my life. Getting married and having kids.
The vibrating in my pocket attracts my attention immediately and awakes me from the trance like stadium. Again, my thoughts are aways drifting away towards him. Taking the cellphone out the name Nana is visible "Nana-Chan..." I whisper and keep gazing at the display. Sliding the green bottom across the let phone Nana's voice is ringing though the phone "(F/N). God, I thought something happend. Everyone is worried!" Screams Nana "(F/N) come back!" Screams Shin with a sorrowful voice. Laughing I lower my head "I'm sorry Nana I think I need a break!" I whisper and feel the sadness overwhelming me. The sobbing is passing through my lips as I hear the sound of something breaking "Yasu get (F/N) back now?!" Shouts Nana Angrily "I'm sorry!" I whisper before ending the phon call. It's half past five. My gingers are felting th numbers on their own "(F/N)? Wanna come over?" Asks me the voice over the line. A short replied is being heard as I agree and begin to make my way towards the man. I hate this. I'm feeling disgusted about myself. He cheats on his girlfriend. Tsubasa Saitou is the guy. Within minutes I arrived at the door from his apartmant. Hie many nights did I spent here in the arms of some stranger? I don't know. I've lost counts. Knocking on the door I await him already with his mischievous smile as the door opens I'm just staring into broken eyes "come in!" He whispers quickly before letting me in. I didn't even could get my shoes off as he attacks me. His lips covering mine. His hand travelling across my body. He searchs for comfort. Just like me. His lips are trailing butterfly kisses down my spine as he keeps undressing me "the only time I'm by your side..." I Moan inbetween the kiss "the only time I call you mine!" He whispers against my lips before kissing me again. We lost ourselves in the passion which led to one to another.
Since the night it has been weeks but something was off with me. I was me sensible then usual. My breats were hurting too. Many scents were driving me into throwing up.
Don't tell me..... I'm pregnant with his child. Don't tell me.....
Sitting on my bed I lay back. My future. I've thrown it away. Yasu. Hiding my face in the pillow I start to cry and hit the bed "why????" I scream again and again. Yasu will leave me alone too. I've lost. I don't have strength even to cry. Laying in the bed with lifeless eyes I keep looking at the wall. Surely I'm done for. Days I haven't answered my phone. I tried to call Nana but I broke down and ended the call. That was yesterday. Which day is it today? I'm fucked up. Suddenly I hear the sound of the door. Somebody is coming. Who? I wonder.my door is bursting open and revealing Nana and Yasu. I want to call out them but I can't. New tears are streaming down my face. Nana rushes to my side embracing me "Nana I'm sorry. I'm so sorry!" I whisper and cling onto her. She is nodding her head before giving Yasu a sign to wait outside but as Yasu wants to leave he spots the baby birth control pills. Untouched "(F/N) don't tell me.....You're pregnant?" He says now taking his sunglasses off "I'm sorry!" I say again and break down. Nana is trembling as she whispers comforting words "I wanted to protect your innocence!" Whispers Yasu Angrily and punches the wall. Yasu is a collected man but never has Nana seen this side of him "Nana can I talk to her alone for a moment?" He asks her. Seconds afterwards he kneels infront of me "why? Your dream with the wedding and happy family?" He says and lowers his head "Yasu you're my dream. It's meaningless if you aren't there!" I whisper and close my eyes. He looks up and places his hand on my cheek "I'm not good enough for you!" He whispers against my cheek with a sorrowful face "Only you. I want only you and none other!" I say and lean my head on his shoulder. He trembles but start to caress my cheek (F/N)" He whispers my name against my lips before kissing me "If you're pregnant I'll help you and raise it as my own!" He says and takes my hand.
