Strangers In The Shadow's

The introduction

I din't know that I shouldn't trust you nor did I know that you would play with my feelings.At the time I seen you as my bestfriend and my boyfriend not someone that would change the way i trust people.You made me questions everthing I did every move i make and everyone I talk to.You cased me so much pain it threatens to devour me.And yet for some stupid reason I still love you.

All of this started with a note and a answer I never should have used.You see at the time I really dint love him I seen him as a my closest friend and I might have had a small crush but I really don't remember . Because after that day everything got better and my emotions seem to grow in realized I did love him and I was happy I finally found someone that could return those feeling what I didn't know is that everything would change because I said yes...

The day I said that you seemed so happy and somehow ended up texting my cousin that night about me that was just weird.But I was happy that you were happy and glad that I could consider my best friend being more than I ever hoped.

Everything from that day seemed better.we were happy are friends were happy and everything was great.But after about a week you didn't seem so happy.Happy but not happy happy.If that even makes sense.

I could feel my feeling grow from a small crush to much more.But why my feelings grow it seems yours stopped.3 weeks later you broke up with me well really I kinda just found out in band.know one told me I just kinda guessed.And you wouldn't face me you had people pass down what you wanted to say.Pain spread throughout my chest.But I did not show that I showed a black expression and just oh ok.

Things were a little weird between us but soon it did not matter and he acted like we were still best friends and I plastered on a smile and did the same even tho it broke me every day.

Oh and the best part you thought this book was only going to be about love and stupid stuff.Oh well it's not.Things were bad at home to it seemed my dad well my step dad hated me my mom and dad were always fighting and it never stopped.Things got worse.I pretend I was ok everyday of my life pretended I was happy but all I ever wanted was to be loved and really be happy and not be hit and call stupid names.

But that never happened because things went on .you moved away and after school start the next year we became strangers again and that hurt more than being hit or screamed at. But all I can do is sit there and take everything that's thrown at me