My Angel

"It's alright, Channie. Maybe she just wasn't the one for you. There're plenty of fish in the sea. She's just one girl. No need to get so worked up about it."

I continued to silently cry as I gripped the now crumpled paper in my hands. Baekhyun's arms were around me and I was clutching the paper so tightly that my fist turned white. The words written on it were still fresh in my mind.

"I don't think this is going to work, Chanyeol. I have so many things to think about and I'm going to be far away from you. I don't do long distance relationships. So, sorry. We're breaking up here."

I gripped his clothes tighter and I felt Baekhyun wriggling a bit. I softened up and tried to answer him. "...b-but she was really the one girl that I got so attached t-to..." I heard Baekhyun sigh as he rubbed my back.

"You know, you can't question the fate that God has put you through. It's his will not ours. So, he will guide us to our destined soulmates. Try to take a break from chasing girls and live up to your life. If you keep mopping like this...no one will want you."

I smiled and looked at him. His face was full of concern and pity. He was so cute! "Yeah, thanks Baekkie~!" He wrinkled his eyebrows and hit me. "Yah, I told you not to call me that! It feels like I'm a dog when you adress me so!"

I laughed so hard. Baekhyun did the same. I knew I could trust him. I just knew. He was there whenever I needed love advice and he was there when I needed someone to hear my problems. I knew he was there for me.

I continued on with life like what Baekhyun asked me to do. It's weird how I never listen to anyone else's advice but Baekhyun's. I guess it's cause I have these feelings for him that make me so willing to be with him.

I admit, I do have feelings to Byun Baekhyun. The boy who I had known from when I was three. The boy who was there for me whenever my parents weren't any much of help. But I couldn't tell him. Not when he wasn't gay.

As I was walking back from my work at the cafe, I bumped into Baekhyun who was sitting at one of the benches near a park. His eyes were closed but his face contorted with pain as he held his left foot.

I ran towards him while calling out his name. "Baekkie!" He opened his eyes and smiled as he saw me. "What's wrong with your foot?" He grinned awkwardly and indicated at the park. "I was jogging then suddenly I fell. You might realise that bump on the pavement there. That's where I tripped."

I saw the sky becoming darker and I crouched down in front of him. "W-what are you doing?" "We better go home now so that I can tend to your wound. It's just nearby. Come on, Baek." I felt his body weight on mine as I hoisted him up. I chuckled. "You're quite heavy for your height, you know."

He buried his face on my back as I carried him to my home. "Please don't forget about me when I'm not here..." Baekhyun had said that after I patched up his foot which was quite bruised. Before I could ask what he had meant, he fell asleep. I covered him with a blanket and sat next to him.

I brushed away a strand of his hair that covered his face and purposely kissed his cheek. "Goodnight, Baekkie." He squirmed and grasped my hand tightly in his. I was shocked but left his hand in mine. I ended up sleeping next to Baekhyun as he didn't want to let go of my hand.

I didn't know that that was the last memorable memory I would have with Baekhyun. As I woke up the next morning, I saw that he was still sleeping. I shook him as it was already past noon. "Yah, Baek-ah. Ireona. It's alrea-"

My eyes went wide as his hand hung limply from the couch. I put my head on his chest and discovered there was no heartbeat. My heart even stopped for awhile. I screamed and quickly called for an ambulance. I didn't know what to think as they brought him to the hospital.

"I'm sorry but Byun Baekhyun passed away even before he came to the hospital." The doctor had said to me after checking on him in the ICU Room. No, I couldn't believe him. I punched the wall until my fingers bled. "We had found this in his pocket. It was addressed to Park Chanyeol. I'm guessing that person is you."

As I read what had been written, I fell limp to the ground. I hung my head in shame. If I had known all this time that his affection to me was out of love...I could've told him how I felt about him. "Baekhyun-ah.." I guess, whenever I love someone so dearly...in the end, they would just leave me.

"I'm so sorry, Baekhyun...Nado Saranghae..."