This book is for everyone who is, without a better word..Lost. You have probably heard this all before, I know. Alas it's probably the truth mate, but I know you probably won't believe me until I tell you why I understand and how I do. Well sadly I'm really naive still even today. I don't understand most things. I just don't.. Well at least I'm aware I'm naive instead of being blind, but sometimes I wish I stayed blind, that's when I was in, I suppose... happiness.
Alas we all go in that part of life when we become aware of ourselves and become embarresed and extremely self concious of ourselves. I totally get that. I had the perfect friends who understood and accepted me, and I'm really glad of how lucky I am. A whole lot of people don't get that comfort. When I realized that I made a lil' promise to myself. If anyone is suffering on the inside I want to be one of the people who is there to help them up. I was depressed for a year and a half straight, People were convinced that I was "emo", or some other lable. I always wore the dark long sleeve sweaters and was always the silent one. Until one day I woke up.
I realized that people are going to be people and that Life is not going to be the nicest person ever. I realized if I don't get up I'm going to be miserable for the rest of my life. I'm not going to be all "Y.O.L.O." or some poop like that. It's true you gotta live the life you were given, but you gotta do some work too. I know some of the people reading are thinking," Work? haven't I suffered enough to make up for that?", or something similar. The clean truth is nwo, really you have been taking a vacation and it's time to come back. I know it's truly exhausting and tiring, but we all have to move on. Work hard now and luxerey is your life. Stay in the fog or numbing darkness and miserey is going to win.
My best way of making friends is connections. I started by making a few hobbies and became sorta of a well-rounded type of person. I looked up popular PC, Xbox, and Wii games and played quite a few. I made some connections with people who are gamers just like that. It doesn't have to be tedious and boring to create connections with people. It can be purrety fun twoo! I made up my own typing quirk and it makes quite a difference. People like to text and message me on Skype and other social programs. I also take it up another level by combining my typing quirk to my without a better word, accent. That's just some of my connections, and a one way to create furriends.
I know it may seem impossible, I still am very shy and have difficulties filling in conversations, but it's a start of something that can blossom and grow.
