one and only (one shot)

   The most unforgettable moment of my life is that when i met the girl i love

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in the hospital.

     i'm a lung cancer patient and i'm staying here for almost a year na.. a newly admitted girl became my roommate .. she was said to have a severe brain tumor .

    she was my first love .. and i didn't expected that i would experience love in the first 3 seconds that our eyes met .. i guess its LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT ..

   dug.dug.dug.dug.

  "hi. ako nga pla si stephen" i approached her immediately  when our parents got out of our rooms .

   "ahh.. nicolette pala " and we shook our hands .

   "friends?" i said

   "friends" she replied

" you know, you are prettier when you smile." the things i said made her smile .. and her smile made my heartbeats fast ..

     we became friends . being with her everyday makes me forget my illness .. i tried to confess my feelings for her but i never succeeded. pinangungunahan ako lagi ng kaba ..  3 months passed, we became very close to each other . saying i love you to each other means nothing to us .. ugghh, to her only.. because hearing say i love you to me makes me feel like crying .. i know i'm dying .. my illness gets worse everyday ..

   then the worst day came ..

the girl i love the most passed away ..

    "ang daya mo .. sabi ko sayo eh. ako dapat mauna " i said while wiping my tears .

   losing her made my life a living hell .. sh*t .. i can't eat and sleep properly ..

    "hijo, you're always crying . lift yourself up hijo" said nicolettes mom.

    "how am i suppossed to lift my self up if the girl that i love so much passed away already? " i said while fighting back my f*ckin tears .. tita smiled.  the next words she said made me even cry more ..

   " hijo, she was right. nagmamahalan nga kayo .. she can't just say it to you because she is scared that you might reject her .. she left me this .. kabilin bilinan nya sa akin na ibigay ko daw sayo yan pag wala na sya. basahin mo yan, hijo." o_O

    tonight, i'm reading letter that she left me .

dear stephen ,

    first of all,  i want to confess my feelings for you . mahal kita, at sana pareho tayo nang nararamdaman . siguro pag nabasa mo ito, patay na ako .. ang tanga ko no ? bat di ko maamin sa iyo na mahal kita? ayoko kasing magluksa ka kung sakaling mamatay na ako . you have to live your life to the fullest , stephen .. do the things that makes you happy. i'm sorry if tinago ko sayo na malapit na akng mamatay . untreatable na kasi tong pesteng sakit na to eh . habang sinusulat ko to, pinagmamasdan kita habang natutulog . ayokong sirain ang buhay mo . ayokong umikot lang ang mundo mo sa akin.

    mahal kita stephen, tandaan mo yan .. hihintayin kita dahil MAHAL KITA ..

                             nagmamahal,
                                 Nicolette

***** after six years****

     its been six years...

six years since i lost the girl i love .

      nagtataka ba kayo kung bakit buhay pa 'ko?

    i'm a cancer survivor :)

  now, i'm proud to say that i am already running my own bussiness and i now have my

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family .. i love my daughter and wife very much .

ito yung gusto ni Nicollete eh .. ang maging masaya ako .. masaya ako sa buhay ko ngayon . nagmahal ako ulit ..

   pero kahit ganon, hanggang ngayon, mayroon parin syang parte sa  puso ko..

   because she is unique
SHE IS MY ONE AND ONLY BEST FRIEND..
MY ONE AND ONLY FIRST LOVE .
MY ONE AND ONLY GIRL