NOSTALGIC

My little world

"Have you ever seen a horse?"
My mother asked.

"No mommy what's that?"
I was curious.

"Its a beautiful animal which would carry you on its back someday with a prince and take you away"she smiled

"Really mommy!a prince!"

"Yes darling, a Prince for my little Princess"

"Would he give me chocolates mommy?"

"Yeah sweetie, chocolates with lots of love"

"Love? What's that mommy"

She laughed and kissed my forehead.
"You'll know it all when you grow up my child"

"Is it a kind of chocolate mommy?"

She again laughed.
"No, dear , it was something your daddy did to your mother"

"You said daddy is up there in the sky, didnt you mommy?"

"Yes, he is the one looking after us and taking care of us the whole time" she said.

"But why cant I see him mommy?" I asked.

"The best things in this world cannot be seen my child, can just be felt"

I was confused and mom got that before i did.

"Sorry darling, you are too young to get what I just said" she smiled.

When she smiled her cheeks made a small dug on the side of her lips. Yeah something called dimples.

"How did daddy get there so high mommy?Did he have wings?"

"No,No,an angel was sent from heaven to take away all the good people from the earth to heaven. Your daddy was also one of the good people, so, while your mommy was sleeping,angel took away daddy and when i woke up, your daddy was on the sky smiling back at me"

I felt something wet on my forehead. It was my mother's tears as I was resting in her lap.
Back then I was too young to know what hurted her, my questions or the reality.
That day I fell asleep in her lap, so warm and so secure. I didnt have a father but I never felt that incomplete as well. My Mother had become the universe for me.She gave me the protective shoulders of a father and whatever I wud ask for. And as the sky was forever with us, we both knew Daddy was forever with us.

My mother was just 20 when daddy died and I was just a day old. The day of my birth was the day of my father's death.

I was too young back then to realize why some people called me a curse but now, I know why.
It should have hurted me but it doesnt. Why? Because my mother denies it.

She told me once when I asked her if I was a curse,

"Curse is something that makes someone's life ugly, bad and equivalent to hell but you are the one that gave me a reason to live and smile once again, sweetie, You are the soul of your father,not a curse and the one who says that doesnt know us!"

I trusted my mother and I was happy back then without understanding what she was trying to say but now its hard to satisfy myself though there are some people who say that I am the reincarnation of my father because my father love mommy so much that he couldnt leave her alone in this place of ruin.

I feel so lucky to know and believe that, I am my Daddy's second life.

It has been eighteen years of dad being an angel and eighteen years of my arrival on this world. Mommy never married though many proposals came for her. It was because of me and the memories she had made with my father.

"Era, what are you doing? Can you please come downstairs and help me with these dishes honey"
my mom shouted.

I hate doing up dishes and my mother must hate it too.

"Yes, mommy, just a minute"
I cried out loud so she wont have to
repeat.

I closed my diary and wore my pants. Pants are not allowed when I am alone in my room. Thats my so called policy. Weird me! I dont even have a reason for that.
Before I rushed dowstairs, I kissed the Craver's poster on the back of my door. I had a crush on this star since I was thirteen and now I guess its love.
"The love she never met" would be a perfect title if something was to be written on this.
As I rushed downstairs, I didn't find mommy. When I entered the kitchen, she was standing on the dining table with tears in her eyes. I was afraid. My heart pounded. Everytime she cried gave me the worst feeling. I couldn't guess anything.

"Mommy, what happened, why are you crying"
I asked moving towards her.

"Stay away, dont come near me!"
Ouch! It hurted so bad.

"What happened mommy?"
I asked again.

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