Since our nursery days we know each other. We always walk hand-in-hand while our mothers having their talk behind us. You make me laugh when you make faces, I even cried to my mom when you had your little vacation somewhere because I miss you.
When our elementary days came our friendship grew more stronger. We would always tell stories on how our school days came through. When you flash me your smile, when you laugh, you'll always made my heart pitter patter but by that time I was oblivious of what I really feel for you.
Graduation came and we decided to study in a same school for our high school which I'm more than glad. In our sophomore years, we got too much close where this thing called hugging and intertwining hands are also included in our friendship.
We do things that you might thought we are actually a couple except for kissing, which the others actually thought we are. But basically I hope we do. This time I was aware about what I feel for you, but of course I'm afraid to risk anything, meaning I keep this love from you in which I regretted later.
Our senior years came up and you started to drift away. Why? Because you've told me that you were inlove with this another girl and I don't even know why. You need to be apart from me in school since the that girl tells you to in which of course you are obliged. How pathetic of me isn't it? I feel like an abandoned child.
I cried for two weeks in my room just because of that, just? It was never a just since you became my life, my love and my everything but in you I was only a friend a childhood friend in your eyes. My eyes sting and become so red and puffy.
You've seen that the other day and you gave me a worried look but I just shrugged it off knowing that you wouldn't actually care but I was wrong. After dismissal I went straight to my house with my mom greeting me which I didn't pay attention to thanks to you Taehyung.
In the evening after dinner you called me up through the phone. My mind debated if I should answer it or not in which I did for the reason I'm such a fool person, a fool who falls for you. You've asked me that night if I've cried and I said yes of course I couldn't lie to you since you know me so well, then you asked me why that time I was frozen for a while but then I answered you with these mouth full of lies.
I told you that soon we'll be apart when college comes for the reason that I'll be taking college from the other country and there's this silence that engulfed us and I can tell that you were saddened by the news.
Although it was true that I'm leaving for 4 years without you that wasn't actually the reason why I cried its because I love you and I want you to know that but I can't let it happen. When it was past midnight we hanged up and I couldn't wipe off the smile on my face.
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Our graduation came up I was infront of a wide crowd since I graduated as an outstanding student. I couldn't smile while I was giving my speech I even cried though the others thought that it was because I'm happy but they all got it wrong it was because I was hurt since this time you are now with that girl, you were already couples. Well, I guess this is what they called as one-sided love. It was a pain that I couldn't get rid off it.
After the speech I was having a small talk with my friends, teachers and my parents. You smiled at me but what caught my eyes is that you are holding her hands like you were afraid to lost her. Why were you afraid to lost her when I'm here afraid to loose you. I gave you a false smile as I turn my head away because I could feel the urge of crying again.
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Two days before I leave I saw you with your girl having fun and forgetting about me. I couldn't get mad at you even though you've hurt me so much but I couldn't just put the blame on you because its me, its my own fault not yours. I balled my hands into fist whilst my breathing gets uneven. I run away as I never thought that I was already at my front door.
