Took a few week break... school is just too hard these days!
Read my new story, it's larry. Don't shoot me.
But yup this is a massive twist in the story. So enjoy if you can
Bye
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Being married. Its weird.
It's a lot to take in for a couple in there late 20s and 30s but imagine being 18. Some take it all in their loved fill daze, like Justin is. All he does is compliment me with many words of praise, telling me I'm beautiful, stunning, amazing. He also showers me with constant 'I love you" but I'm a coward. I can't find the words to say it back.
As well as that coward ness. I am the kind of person that regrets. I hate him even though we have only been wed for a few weeks. I don't dare to bring up his cheating maybe because it's my cowardness again or the fact that I'll let down my guard and he will see my true sadness that has came to haunt me once again. I feel like the girl as was back in the day. When I was 16 and so so naive. Fuck it. I want to be like her again. I want to be drunk right now. I don't want the fancy life style I have right now, I want to be El. But I can't because I'm beth...
Im sitting layering on my heavy black make up like I did back in my younger years. I look at my phone texts flooding in from Jacob informing me of the address of the party.
I pick up the bottle from the side of my bed. Vodka my chosen drinks.
My room mate Portia steps in "are you sure that's a good idea beth?"
I give her my signature smile and take a big gulp.
"what about school tommorow? It's a Wednesday night?" she says appoled
I open up the window, ignoring her comment and look at the path down I had decided a few days ago. Before I swung a leg over she stops me.
"stop acting weird, I know your so sad lately. But don't act like you've gone crazy" she shouts.
"don't over exaggerate" I laugh as I make my way out with my drink.
I walk into the house I was directed to go in. I knew exactly where is was. All eyes are on my slim figure as a sway my hips. I feel arms around me. I turn around. "Jacob" I whisper to the buff figure.
"let's do it for the memories" he smirks as he walks of with me hand in hand. We get into the kitchen were all of his mates were.
"open your mouth" he whispers in my ear. I gap my lips slightly. He places in a white pill.
"what was that?" I ask
"E" he laughs
I laugh "but I'm a good girl"
Mocking the song blurred lines he sings "but your a good girl"
I laugh, I see lots of people pushing each other in the garden "whats happing" I shake
Jacob grabs me "Your on edge, just chill out nothing's going to happen here"
I smile at him. He throws his hand around me. "down worry" he whispers, so gently.
But the calmness of my friends voice soon caddied away when I became aware of it loud booming of the music.
Lets just go with the beat...
I'm dancing around the living room with about 30-50 people, my body being pushed around.
This is when a girl, who acted like she knew me runs up. "ELLLL" this girl squeaks
