Casanova Heartthrob || Book 1

22nd Heart

Jungkook's P.O.V.

I was still sitting on the floor looking emotionlessly at my hands that were covered by my own blood.

The loud banging of the door stopped which I kind of relieved somehow.

Now, he doesn't care at me anymore.

He had his words. He started regretting for choosing me. I felt like it's not worth it. Those memories that I've spent with my dear husband that are still stuck in my mind, are becoming dull.

This is the worst day of my life. I didn't expect this will happen to me, to us. My faith is shattared, and so does my bleeding heart.

I've been like this until afternoon and I haven't hear any signs of Taehyung. How nice of him. I'm sure he's preparing for the prom by now since Jin hyung bought him a tux. Jin hyung wants to buy some for me too but I insisted. I don't want his money to be wasted by a piece of trash like me. Yes, I admit. I'm a piece of trash, right?

I got up.

I was limping as I walk to the bathroom. Blood was trailing as I walk. I washed my body, getting rid of the horrible color of blood and its smell.

I tried to treat the cuts. Although the wounds were lessen, the pain is still there. Maybe I need to be injected to get rid of tetanus, but it's okay for me though. Why would I care to live if there's nothing for me to live?

The water that flows down was helping, though it made stings as it made contact with my wounds. It hurts, so much.

After I've done cleaning up, I limped again as I walk to our walk-in closet. I wore casual clothes that I'm comfortable of.

I looked at the window, seeing that the sky's becoming dark. The prom must've start now, but I don't care.

I went downstairs, and no one's there. My mind battled if I should eat or not, it just reminds me about Taehyung earlier. So I didn't eat, not even once this day. I'm not feeling anything.

I looked around the mansion. I am the only person left here. This was suppose to be a happy place, but I can't feel that vibe now. The deafening silence, the empty halls. You can almost hear a pin drop.

I cried again. Why do I always cry? It just shows that I'm weak. Why does Taehyung being like this anyway? Is something wrong with me? Am I not beautiful? Am I not sexy enough? He chose me over Carol. So it means I'm not beautiful nor sexy, just like everybody said. I'm the desgusting nerd. (A/N: I'm soooorryy, Kookie! You're perfect.)

My sobs are echoing the whole place, which still can't stop me from crying. The sky is completely dark, no light can be seen of course, so does my soul.

I went to the garage outside. All the cars are not there. Did he take all to the prom? He didn't even left one from me. So I guess I'm walking. I don't know where to go, but my mind wants to go to the school where the prom is held. Why do I even want to go there?

I can't walk properly but I'm trying as hard as I could. It took me 45 minutes to get there. Gladly, the prom was held at the school's huge space in the center. I saw my batchmates wearing formal clothes, gowns and suits everywhere. I hid on the bush so no one would ever see me.

It was their time to dance in the middle of the crowded people. I was looking for familiar faces until I saw the hyungs. Jin hyung and Namjoon hyung were making out, while Jimin hyung and Yoongi hyung are on the dance floor. My bestfriend, Hoseok is just sitting at the table where Jin and Namjoon is, looking at the couples dancing. Hoseok hyung furrowed his eyebrows and glanced to my direction which I immediately hid down before he sees me. But where's Taehyung?