Forever and Always - BoyxBoy -Complete-

5

Kean >---->

Liam and I spent the rest of the night having a dinner on some quiet and well sort of expensive restaurant. Of course, I was the one who have invited him to congratulate of his performance tonight. You may describe the place as romantic: candle-light dinner with a rose sitting inside a thin glass vase, a typical one. And then maybe, I’m honestly thinking of making this night even more romantic on whatever I could think or what he could think of for the both of us. Maybe we can make love tonight, but I don’t think he’s ready for this one… yet. Silly isn’t it?

He’s seating right across me, enjoying his food and I continue to look at him as he takes his food into his mouth. Even I’m getting full already by just watching him eat. It already satisfies me. I couldn't resist on having a big smile by just glancing at his way of eating his food. Although we have been eating together almost every day, this is so different. Before I or we still consider each other as best friend. But now, well it’s a bit more up, boyfriends to be exact.

“My, my, look who’s drooling all over his plate. Are you just going to stare at me like that or are you going to eat some? You know, I don’t like being watched as I eat. It makes me feel like I’m a prisoner. Of course, I’d prefer to be a prisoner of love for you.” He dropped down his fork, and the sound of it hitting the edge of his plate snapped me back into reality.

I glanced up to him and his face is just making that clown face, smiling and pouting at the same time, blinking his eyes once in a while and raises one eye brow. It's not a worried look but just something that eases me, soothes the very worst part of me. Damn how he looks so gorgeous! And I’m lucky enough to be his boyfriend. I thought to myself, smiling. I've never noticed this part of him before; the goofy side of this idiot, charming seductively inviting me to a place where everything is just for the two of us.

Still I can’t help but daydream about him all the time. Well I suppose that… he’s the one for me. I’m sure the he thinks of that way too.  Of course, he should. That’s the very reason why he loves me and I love him back as much as he loves me.

“Well, I was just thinking about…”

“About what?”

“About…”

I wonder if I should tell him… Maybe he’ll just think of me as a perverted person... Not that we’re not doing it when we’re all alone wither in my room or his, but we never got all the way down. It’s just until those light touches and then maybe something else but that’s it. He might as well get mad at me if I ask him directly about it.

Silence… Utter silence…

I then decided to break it. “I, uh… Well.. If you’d like….”

Leaning forward on the table with his ears closing in gives me all the creeps and some sort. There’s no turning back after I let this one go.

“Well, what is it Kean? Are you going to continue to be like that or what? You already look like an idiot staring at me cautiously. I’m just waiting for you to say it. If you don’t want to tell me that am fine as long as you start shoving your food into your mouth and chew it.” He sounded like a bit cross as he said them. Usually, this makes me give up and tells him about it but this time I better hold it.

“I, uh” breathing out before I continue, “uh, never mind about it Li. I’m just distracted of some things. There’s nothing for you to bother it anyways.”

“Oh, really Kean? Because the last time I heard about it was about Daniel... your lovely precious Daniel...You worrying what’s going on with him and his boyfriend. And not only that, you're always 'Daniel is this...', 'Daniel is that...', 'Oh, wait Daniel is that....' It's really irritates me to the bones! I mean, c'mon Kean! Why do you care so much about him anyways?” He crosses his arms, shakes his head and rolls his eyes.

“It’s not him that I'm thinking about now, it’s about you… I was just wondering if we can do it tonight... Well you know… Making love… in your place… all the way down…”

That’s it, I broke it. This is totally embarrassing since we are in a public place and I have raised a bit my voice. Almost every one near us heard it. Sure, it’s normal to others but this is my first time. I just felt my head turned burning hot like a heating kettle and my ears close enough to let out all the smoke made by my boiling blood inside.

Although the place was a bit dim, just a few lights making the place bright enough to set the mood of all people dining here, I can unimaginably notice his cheeks suddenly blushed into a tint of red. His face was as still as a calm lake just looking at me continuously.

Suddenly, he bursts into laughter. I don’t even know if he wants it now or not. Tch…. Great... Now I look like a total idiot. Even asking my boyfriend to have sex with me is not working and it’s not even convincing him

"You... you look so terribly ridiculous!" He says in between his laughs.

“Aren’t you mad at me?”

“Why would I be so mad at you? I was just trying to lighten up your mood a bit. You’ve been brooding for ages already Kean and you never broke cracked a sound since then. If I sound a bit mad is because I was just well… teasing perhaps? But, honestly, I’m not angry with you.”

“That’s a relief.” I said as I reached for his hand.

Once he removed his hand from my hold, I accidentally hit the glass on my side and eventually it fell on the floor, smashing it into pieces. A sudden cold wind blew hard. That’s odd. It’s a close restaurant and there are no windows that are open.

“Kean? Is something bothering you now?”

“I-uh... It’s just the broken glass. That’s all. I call for someone to take care of this.”

I raised my hand to catch the attention of a waiter standing in the corner and pointed to him the broken glass. “Can you take care of this one for me please?”

“Sure sir, just a minute.”

“Thanks.”

I quickly tuned my attention to Liam who was having a drink already. “Hmm, this actually tastes good. You should try it Kean.”

“Maybe next time and don’t drink too much or else I’m going to be in trouble with your parents.”

“Relax, it’s not like I haven’t been drunk in front of them with wines. Besides, it isn’t that strong.” He giggled as he resumed drinking the rest of his glass.

Still I’m bothered about that cold wind that suddenly blew. I don’t know but it’s something that reminds me suddenly of Daniel. After he left with Jake earlier, it seems like Dan was more worried about me and Jake was too cold for him. This may sound crazy enough but I really wanted to see if Daniel is alright now.

Taking a sip of of my share, I tried to think of what I truly think. I’m not confused, I love Liam so much. Daniel told me before that what I feel for him is just friendship, that I should treat him like a friend. I should put up that barrier between us. He does that too, so I must follow him.

“Hey Li, I love you…” leaning over the table closer to him.

“I love you too Kean.” He leaned forward making our lips feel each other, bruhisng. That sounded right.