Me raven aka Zoe

have not been to good lately

hey guys im sorry i have not been writing much but i have not been the happiest lately so what i thought i was going to be finally happy i have to do something wrong so last week i gave my bf a note saying that im sorry im to scared to kiss him and that i am sorry i am not the best gf and other things i am sorry for and since then he has been acting weird and he has not been here and at the place were me and my friends hangout at, i gave the note to him on Wednesday or Thursday i can't remember but i gave it to him and on Thursday or something(sorry i can't remember the days)i wanted to hangout with him but he wanted to be with his friends more then he wanted to be with me i mean i get he wants to hangout with his friends but wouldn't he want to be with me more then his friends, it just sucks because i care about him a lot and he is so important to me anyway then on Friday(i remember this day)he was not at the group so i thought he was not there so i cried(btw i never cry it is very rare that i cry)then i found out that he was at school(my best friend and her bf were on the oval where and they saw my bf on the oval WITH HIS FRIENDS)so then i got mad/sad i wanted to scream and cry at the same time and i had a tear go down my face in class(and i HATE crying in front of people)so then i just wanted to crawl into a corner and die and i still want to do and then it was the weekend and i can not call or text him because his phone is a being a little shit so i can't call or text him to talk about it on the weekend the the weekend is over and on Monday i went to the place were we hangout at and he was not there so then i checked on the oval and he was not there and now its Tuesday and yet again he is not herei checked on the oval and we was not there so i cried again and the thing is the group of friends that i hangout with there are a lot of happy couples and its so hard to see i mean don't get me wrong i am happy for my friends its just so fucking hard i just feel like crying when ever i see a happy couple so yea and if any of my friends read this and they are in a happy relationship please do not feel weird just because i wrote this and i know not a lot of people read this book but this book is for me to let stuff out so yea thanks for reading and thanks for being there for me.

bye my little demons