Why?

I don't understand

How could this happen

What did I ever do wrong

For those I thought

I might be able to trust

After being betrayed so much

Turned right back around

And stabbed me in the back

Why?

It hurts so much now

After finding out the truth

That the dream I thought I lived

Was a lie

Now the entirety

Of my reality

Is filled with pain and despair

Yet still I go on

Pretending like nothing happened

Believing that I will forget

I force myself to suffer

More of their lies

Their hatred, mockery

Slowly killing me from the inside

But I still have to act

I have to pretend

I can't let them know something's wrong

If I'm weak

They'll laugh at me

Ridicule, scorn, hate

Fill my mind

With pain and lies

They'll be the entirety of my life

Why?

Why do you hate me?

What did I ever do?

I don't understand

Why this ever happened

But I can't take this anymore

I have to escape

I hate all of this

I just want this world to die

But I'm stuck in one place

Trapped between love and hate

Fear and despair

My constant companions

Follow me everywhere

My only comfort

Is my sleep

But I always awaken to this nightmare

I don't understand

What I ever did

To create such hatred against me

I think it's because

I exist

But the one true question

Will never be answered

As long as I'm caught up in their lie

I would do anything at all

Good or bad

Just to know

Why?