Memories of Pain

I'm trying to hold on

But it gets harder as each day passes

What once was colorful is now fading to gray

There's no way to rewind the past

To go back and change all the mistakes I've made

These mistakes are bound to haunt me

I want to keep these memories where they belong . . . in the past

To escape the memories of what happened

To forget all the pain he caused me

There has to be a way to escape heartbreak

Regret is all I think about when he comes to mind

The biggest mistake I've ever made is him

I'm past my breaking point

As each day passes I break a little more

At this point I'm beyond repair

There's no such thing as ever after

The heartache is impossible to escape

False hopes led to complications

Leaving me to hold my heart in my hands

It's a sinking ship that no one will ever be able to save

There's no way to end this with ever after

There's too much damage done  to even consider ever after

He's the one to blame for all the damage done

All that's left is broken promises

Everything went from simple to complicated within  a matter of minutes

I never thought that I'd be broken

Broken to the point where everything hurts

What happened to "I'll never hurt you" ?

It has no meaning to it anymore

I can't believe I was stupid enough to believe  all his lies

All he's ever done is cause me pain

Sometimes I wish I'd never met him

To not feel all the pain I'm feeling now

All I want to do is forget about him and the pain he caused me

Never going to fall for these stupid games ever again

I'm trying to hold on

Too what little of my heart is now left

He broke me to the point where I don't even know who I am anymore

I've changed to the point where I don't even recognize myself

The trust I gave him has now been broken

There's no way for him to get it back 

It's too late to say sorry

There's to many wounds to even  consider it

Too many wounds that have yet to heal

I'm holding on for dear life

There's no way to rewind  and change what happened

Now all I'm left with is a broken heart and regret

I was once a colorful person and now I'm fading to gray

He killed what was left of that once colorful person

Leaving me to fade to gray