Answer me this: What the hell did I do in my last life to make me deserving of this bullshit? I have to have done some terrible deeds to have this.
I'm gay.
I'm bigender. A gender which evidently doesn't exist in the real world.
I'm atheist.
I have no father and my mother works 10 hours a day just to pay the bills.
I have no friends.
I'm depressed, anxious, and bipolar.
So I was set up for literal failure. I did something so terrible that higher deities put me at such a low point in life.
What the hell did I do in a past life to be forced into a world where it's more socially acceptable to be a MURDERER or CHILD MOLESTER than to like other girls? Why was I put in a world with such negativity that the words "GO KILL YOURSELF" are used as a fucking JOKE?! Why was I set in a world where being intelligent gets you put down and being different than the crowds is the worst thing you can ever do? The phrase "be yourself" could never be so damned wrong. Why is it that now, when In more myself then I ever have been, In more upset and easily pushed down to my knees? Then In used as a stepping stool for the masses. So tell me; what did I do?
Its not just me, oh no no. Its thousands of people. Those of use who dare be different are the most oppressed and depressed people. What did we do to deserve such treatment? For some, the treatment and help is easily within reach. For others, help is theirs and it still isn't enough. And then there are those unfortunate amount of people who can't get the help they need because its too expensive for them or because no one chooses to believe them. What did we ever do?
All people do is say "Oh it will get better! Stop being so dramatic!" Then tell me why I've been depressed for 4 years? Isn't depression a phase? And homosexuality? When does it get better? Cause I only see it getting worse. But maybe that's just my petty little brain talking. I mean, others have it worse, right?
Fuck it. I'm done with this stupid hellhole.
What did I do wrong?
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