Forever and Always - BoyxBoy -Complete-

8

Daniel

Yes, that was my answer to your question. You never waited for me to say it, you expected it from me, anticipated everything before you asked me. I can see all the excitement in your eyes as you swayed our bodies around the big hall. You didn't care if anything or something would eventually break or ruined because of your movements. No, you even made it more graceful. Your eyes dazzled as the gentle sunshine slowly hits our faces and reflects back, those onyx eyes looking at my sapphire eyes, like our eyes were precious gemstones. But the truth is, they are precious. You can almost exactly tell me that I've always wanted you to be in this way, your joy filling my soul till it's contented of over-flowing love you suddenly poured onto me. It's like it was your happiest day ever, so was mine.

I thought I was still dreaming, something like this isn't really happening, that this must be only a joke. I closed my eyes trying to figure it out, thinking to myself that this isn't true, that you’re just an illusion formed inside my consciousness, trying to pull myself together. Still it snapped me out to reality. You were really there, standing in front of me, your arms around my waist waiting for me to move us together, dancing endlessly at sound of our heartbeats, pounding through our chests. If our hearts could only escape, sure they would always find each other no matter where you put them away.

Finally we came to a halt, gently slamming our bodies down the couch. My head rested on your chest my arms rubbing your stomach. You on the other hand, played with my hair, brushing it away from my eyes. It was like heaven, nothing else made me felt so secure in your arms. And then I told you that I was all worried because of your parents that they may not approve of us, since they thought you were all that straight, funny of me to think that way, knowing that they have the slightest idea of what you really are. And when you said that you've convinced them what you felt for me, I was convinced of it's true after all. Another is that my mom would not agree with us, and that she would always wanted me to find the right person and raise my own family even how much harder I tried to tell her that I can't be like she always wanted.

And you said to me that you've already talked to her, you've worked your way all-round the situation. You proved to her how much you really loved me and for that she gave you her absolute signal to go ahead. That's when you knocked into my door and pulled me out of my misery. That's when you asked me to go with you and you asked me the question. I was surprised on how prepared you were and you only responded it all with laughter. I was annoyed, but then you promised that the two of us will work this out, that we'll love each other as long as we breathe.

Silence was surrounding us as we slowly drifted away into dream land. But before you closed your eyes and sounded quietly, you broke the eerie silence. You spoke of the three words I wasn’t expecting from you to come out.

“I love you…”

You said it with all you’ve got, no shame, no malice, and no disgust. It was genuine, so full of care, truly amazing. You looked down do me and pecked my nose, the sweetest thing you’ve ever done to me. I closed my eyes and said those three amazing words to you.

“I love you too…”

And those were our firsts; our first kiss, our first I love you, our first time in each other’s arms together. It wasn’t perfect but it doesn’t have to be. Who would ever want it to be so much perfect if it was already that much? I couldn’t ask anything more that it was. It already made sense to me.

I haven’t felt so unprepared for that very moment, not even sure if it was the right thing to do. I was confused, that we might end up terribly wrong. Letting those three magnificent words out of me feels like I was going to be sick at first, not realizing them pushing themselves out of me. Although at some point it didn’t really felt that bad, it’s only a matter of time to get used to it, to let all the awkwardness fade into black.

You were so confident that time, you never turned down any obstacle while I always stayed at the back watching as you made your way past through them. And when you were done, you would grab my hand and made a run for it. It was always great fun of you. It always seemed that you enjoy everything about it. You were too eager about us, while I contemplated on every move we make. I was still scared of what to do, yet your voice, your arms, your love, those were at it took me to be on the same stage as you were.

Strangely, there was this one day when the two of us were sitting under the shades of a big old tree. It was sunny, warm and gentle breezes blew on our faces and calmed down our very souls, possibly the warmest ever I've experienced for ages not because of the sun but because of you. My body over yours was feeling easy, relaxed.

You straddled your legs around my hips while I scooted closer to your chest, my head laid down and my arms around you, as you did the same with me. Usually, all the boys our age that time would go out and do some skate-boarding or biking or go through the town, mocking and doing senseless stuff which they can’t be bothered to be told off or getting in their mates house and play some video games all throughout until their eyes sore to death. The two of us on the other hand, spent the whole afternoon, cuddling together, up in a windy hill over-looking the whole town and waited for the day to come to an end.

It was a beautiful sight to behold, like the whole town was just a scaled down model place where we put our toys in place. It’s like a game where we put our characters and have them meet up. I was always fun, imagining things, what would happen if we do this or what will result if we do that. You constantly trying be ridiculous and dumb that we forgot the sun hid behind the thick clouds. It didn’t turn out the way we wanted it to be. Soon, water droplets fell from the heavens like shower. We were stuck together under the tree, can’t do anything besides from waiting for it to settle down and go away. But instead, you pulled me up once again and ran and played under the pouring rain, it was too childish of you.

That side of you was always what I wanted to see. I just thought that If I ever see you like that, I’d hit you hard at the back of your head instead, it was like an infection. The touch of your skin against mine caused it to sends surges of electricity and charged me up. We enjoyed the rain as it got harder and harder, not minding what consequences that follows. It was just you and me.

As if you were reading my mind, we paused at the middle of the field, standing on top of a huge rock, where you leaned closer to me. You locked me between your tight embrace, not letting go of my soul and body. Your eyes gazed upon mine as if they hunger for me. I hungered for you too. My wish was always to kiss someone I love in the middle of a hard pouring rain and you granted it, as if it was yours too.

Our lips played and smashed and collided together. If they could only speak for themselves, they’d say that they’re for each other, like our hearts. Our very selves possessed each other, and no one can ever own them. They’ve found themselves back as we made it even more passionate.

You were and always my one and only.