dream of being loved or being hated

oldened love

if you ever not like a dream or a story feel free to move on to the next part. each part is a new story. this way you can explore more ideas. but if you ever want me to continue on a certain part feel free to comment and tell me to do so. i will be more then happy to continue. my answer will always be yes! (unless it is something really extreme and somewhat uncomfortable)

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I was rushing through the halls trying to get to the office. I was already late. The principle entrusted me to show our new student around the school.

I've heard that he was a transfer student. That he came all the way to Massachusetts from Louisiana for our new state of the art school.

I never found our school much to brag about though. It was only good if you were in the honor classes. If you weren't you were not protected. protected from what was really happening. u were completely oblivious to the truth. if you were not shielded from the truth you would see the chaos and monstrosity that ran all over the school. there were always fights. almost one between every period. they were not petty fights either. the loser was always taken away in an ambulance. there would be groups and gangs in the bathroom, trading cigarettes and other drugs. if you actually went in to use the bathroom they would call u a snitch and beat u up. give you something to actually snitch about. of course there was bullying. but there are kids now in mental hospitals because they tried to kill themselves. some where not that lucky to end up in the mental hospital being able to complete their final goal in life to end life

But I'm going to forget all of that just for today and try to welcome the student to our school. Maybe he will be one of the blinded ones. maybe he will get the advantages the school has to offer.

But as I'm now running past the lockers trying not to be late strong hands grab me and pull me over to him. i fell speechless to his ice blue eyes. he stared back at me. i could see his lips moving but i was deaf to what was coming out.

It was the boy i had a crush on ever since the fourth grade. i would dream of him every night. wanting and praying for him to be mine one day. but that dream already came and gone. it was destroyed a long time ago. when he told me he hated me and that he would never like someone like me. that he hated every single little thing about me. that if he had to give me a complement it would be, "thank you, for making me not want to kill myself".

"Did you hear me sweet heart" he questioned me and held my hands tighter.

"Exscue me?" i squeaked out. i was so scared of his deep voice.  

"I'm so sorry love, but I've missed you so much, i love you. Your the only girl for me. I want to be with no one else but you love bug." he had a small lovely smile. i could see the glint in his eyes. those eyes made me fall for him again. but why is this all of a sudden? was it all a trick?

i shyly spoke "But i thought... i thought-"

"i know what you think. i know what you've always thought. and its all my fault and i see now that i cant get enough of you and i can't be with anyone else but you." he cut me off leaning in closer to me. glancing at my lips and back to my eyes.

he leaned in to kiss me. i didn't let him. i pushed him away from me and freed my hands out of his firm grasp.

"I don't want to be hurt again. all you ever did was hurt me. when i finally get over you and find someone else, someone that does love me back, you come to me and proclaim your love like some romantic? this isn't you, I got to go I'm in a hurry." i said holding back the tears running at full speed to the office.

"Wait! so you have a boyfriend?" he yelled running after me.

i quickly ran into the office and shut the door behind me. he didn't walk in after me. he stayed there and watched me threw the window.

i couldn't believe it when i turned around. i could clearly tell who the new student was. i just knew he was the one. he was sitting in a chair flirting with a girl I've never seem before. he was laughing and smiling. he told me he never did smile, sadly. that i was the only one that could make him happy.

but i didn't mind. he stood up looking over to me. his smile disappeared. i ran up to him and gasped his name and hugged him as tight as i could. he didn't hug me back though.

"Babe who the hell is that?" the girl he was sitting with growled. she stood up and crossed her arms starring me down.

he ignored her and looked down on me. "I'm sorry" he whispered to me. "i should of told you the truth".

"the truth? what do you mean?" i stuttered with my lip in a quiver.

he held my face in his hands and kissed my head ever so lightly. he then grabbed the girl's hand.

"babe what the hell!" she piped out at him.

"it's nothing love" he kissed her. you could just see that he loved her. that he loved her more than anything "just something that i had to fix." they walked out of the office hand in hand.

the door swung back open as he rushed in. he must of saw everything threw that window.

"So princess, your pretty little ass got dumped? well you can do better then that load of crap anyways. you have me. you'll always have me. I'll never ever leave you love muffin. i love you" he kept talking as i tried to block out the world.

all i wanted was him but he had another girl. I'm left alone now. all alone.

"yes but i can't say the same for you. I'm sorry. i just don't love you" i tried to explain to him but he didn't care about how i felt.

"then I'll make you love me!" he growled pushing me against the wall.

forcing me to kiss him. l fell weak. i couldn't get away. i pounded on his chest, trying to break his grasp. trying to get away. he bit my lip threatening me for worse would come. the taste of blood filled my mouth. his light blue eyes turn dark and black. the sparkle was gone. i begged for mercy tears rolling down my face. i cried for help. i let out a scream and then ....

it was over.