Eyes

when i close my eyes

When I close my eyes,
all I can see is your dark souls, with those blood shot eyes filled with anger, and it stabbed me like a dagger through me.

When I close my eyes,
my head aching,
my eyes swelling,
my heart breaking,
my ears burning,
my lips leaving,
my tongue drying,
my throat dying,
my words killing.

When I close my eyes,
all I see is darkness, and that is my true nature, people might not see, but it's hidden somewhere in my mind cave, where people are forbidden to go, and will be broken when they go out.

When I close my eyes,
I can see a girl with a lot of blood on her hands,
I can see a girl who have no eyes,
I can see a girl with an open chest,
I can see a girl with a broken heart,
I can see a girl who had an open skull,
I can see a girl with no mind,
I can see a girl who loved someone without thinking.

When I close my eyes,
I saw people surrounding me,
I saw people who are facing away from me,
I saw people who said bad things about me,
I saw people who put daggers in every part of my body,
I saw people who judged me,
I saw people who ripped me,
I saw people who killed me,
inside out.

When I close my eyes,
I felt alone until in the darkest corners in my ferocious mind, I embraced that feeling, when I finally accepted, the fact that you'll end up alone, no matter what ending. I felt the loneliness is embracing me back, saying I am not alone, saying ironically.

When I close my eyes,
I see a gun on my hands in the dark space,
I see the gun which was a revolver with 6 bullets,
I see the bullets painted in different colors,
I see a black bullet,
I see a person in front of me.

I saw a girl with a bullet in her hand, I saw a girl pointing it at me,
I saw a girl with a creepy smile on her face,
I saw a girl the moment when she was gonna pull the trigger,

she pulled the trigger at her legs,
she pulled the trigger at her knees,
she pulled the trigger in her hips,
she pulled the trigger in her stomach,

She told me two last things,

And I suddenly followed what she asked.

She asked was to pull the trigger in her heart and brain.