The Love Of My Life

the funeral preparations

  i got home from the hospital last week and the funeral is today. J.P.'s mom is on her way over to help me in to the dress she made for me when i would have married son.....i feel a single tear roll down my cheek. i wipe it away as a knock sounds at my door.

"Colby darling may i come in?" Mrs Gorgon's voice sounds at the door.

"Yes Mrs. Gordon."  i quickly reply sitting up straight my blood red curls bouncing about.

"Oh dear please call me Marsha!" she exclaims pulling in the dress as i take a deep breath. this thing is huge!!!!!

"that's all of it?" i say sarcastically meaning it as a joke but then Jacob and his friends bring in four much bigger bags.  

"of course not dear Lani still has a bag." she giggles

"that's all one dress?" i ask dumbfounded .

"no one has brides maids dresses that a couple of your friends offered to wear." she smiles sweetly at me opening a bag, then she shooed the boys out saying i needed to change. she first asked me to remove my tank top and shorts,and then she asked me too lift up my arms. she then proceeded to pull a white under dress out from the bag and slid it over my now tired arms. she then pulled the under dress down all the way to were it fit perfectly fit my chest and hips. she hands me a corset expectantly i turned around and hold it up to me right were she began to tighten it.

"let me know if i tie it too tight ok?" she then pulled as hard as she could and i had to hold onto the dresser to keep me up right.

                                                                  10 excruciating  minutes later           

the corset was now properly fastened and i still could breathe (barley). she then pulled out a huge puffy skirt made of tool and slid it over my head where she fastened it at my waist.  she then pulled out a round stool and placed it on the ground. i step up on it where she  pulled out an other skirt this one but not so puffy  but still made of tool. she pulled it over my shoulder and adjusted at my waist.

"will i be able to get out of the door?" i ask out of breath.

"of course!!"

great then she pulled out a sparkly skirt.oh.no. she motions for me to lift my arms up and i do so. when the skirt is secure i take a struggled deep breath and prepare for the next monstrosity she'll pull out of the bag. she pulls out another sparkly corset but this time it had buttons and sleeves. 

                                                                        5 long minutes later

i'm done. i can hardly breathe but i'm done. Marsha opens the door for me but stops turns around   runs back to the bag and pulled out a box jewelry and puts the seashell  earrings, the pearl necklace, and a seashell hair clips on me. she then put a plain long veil to tie it all together. then there was a knock sounding at the door.

"these shoes get arrived."Jacob said opening the but stops in the door way. his jaw dropped and his friend Jared walked in and push Jacob's chin back up snickering.taking the box from him handing it to Marsha.

"here, he's at a loss of words.... you look good Colby.......you did a great job Mrs. G"Jared said pushing Jacob out of the room. Marsha hands me the shoe box. i open the box and see glass slippers with diamonds. they are so beautiful. too beautiful. 

"here let me love."  Marsha says as she kneels down and slips them on.

"thank you... i feel beautiful." i timidly play with my ring"i don't think i can do this Marsha talk about J.P. in front of people each time i do i fell like he's still here with me."

"he will always be with us sweet heart. he's just in here"she says placing her hand over mine and brought it to my heart."and here" she then brought our hands to my head."ok?"

"but talking about it...i...i guess...i guess it makes it more and more....real"

"dear i know the feeling but we can't change the past...and J.P. wouldn't want us to live in the past he'd want us to move on but not forget.....let's go ok?" she holds out her hand for me to take. after a minute i take it and walk to the door but it hit me i have a lot of skirt.

"ummm... how will i fit through the door?"

"we have all of that boy's friends here for a reason love." oh no no no no no no not happening!! we approached the door and it flies open revealing  an overly excited Lani in an Aqua colored dress. she stops mid step and wipes a tear away,

"You look beautiful Colby" she exclaims hugging me tightly."now let's get you through this door" she giggles wiping away more tears"guys we need your'e help!" she giggles again. as Jacob and his friends walk around the corner they stop and stare at me.

"that's a lot of dress." Jackson says blankly. Jared smacks him on the back of his head.

"that's why we need your'r help."Lani rolls her eyes. going behind me pushing me towards the door when i entered the door frame i wouldn't budge. Jared and Jackson grabbed my arms and Jacob took me by the waist and they pulled me out of the door in one fair swoop the surprise was eminent on all of our faces. Jared then cleared his throat and took Lani by the arm and escorted her towards the other door. then Jacob cleared his throat and held his arm out looking me in the eye.

"Oh Colby!! what's this it has your'e name on it?" Marsha call's she sounds like she's miles away. i turn away from Jacob and face her there's a folded piece of paper in her hands. i take and i immediately recognize the hand writing.  this is from J.P..

                                          dear Colby,

Colby at my funeral please remind every one that mom is amazing and sing the song 'you're mother and mine' from peter pan but don't tell any one this has to be our secrete. and please sing our song it will mean so much to my family they know how much we loved it. and you can date any one after this just make sure he is nice and sweet and he loves Disney just like  you and me. please quote peter pan when they lower the casket. oh and can you sing 'you'll be in my heart'    and wear that dress from my mom.

your'e true love

Jonathan Patrick Gordon  

"yes i will." i whisper to myself.

"what did it say love?" Marsha asked.

"just some last minute questions on the funeral from J.P." i whisper reading it over.

"may i read it?" Marsh asked excitedly.

"um i was told not to show anyone but you will see at the funeral...ok?" i ask.

"of course i have to honor his wishes