Today I went to see my Jesse....Of course..As usual. Anywho today we enjoyed each other's company but it ended in anger...Everything we do I always have to be awkward...He and I played games at my house today. I HATED it..He always won. I never even got a chance to get the portal from the witch..It sucked. But I guess him being there took the burden of loss come off my chest...He always does that! Sometimes it helps but other times it annoys the crap outta me. I love him and all but when he looks at em it feels like all the anger has be elevated from me...I wanna be angry like a normal person too! But with him...I CAN'T feel angry for the life of me. Is it a good thing or a terrible thing? I never know. I enjoy the feeling of his flesh against mine...He's so soft it is almost relaxing to point of slumber. Ahh yes. My Jesse-poo is all mine. Every part of him...Is that weird? I almost sometimes fantisize about what we could do together...and how. He feels warm around me...I like it. I want him to hug me more...mayeb not even a hug...maybe something more...It;s makes me anciouse..Mine mine mine mine mine...Oh well...I hear knocking on my door..I'll see you in a bit Diary of mine..I think it's Jesse.
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