The boy that can't be replaced.....

Chapter 1

Hey... My name is Kayla... And basically.... Life sucks right now.... It all started last year.... Freshmen year to be exact. I met a boy named josh. We became good friends and slowly over time developed feelings for each other. It was in math class and knowing my obsession for the hunger games he had started calling me by the two following nick names: "hey mocking jay" or "hey katniss" I'd always smile and grin to myself, rolling my eyes... "Hey video game boy" I'd always say back in response knowing his liking towards video games (obviously..)

From that point on, our friendship slowly started progressing..... we'd always get into little conversations about the random things.. Such as: one day I was talking with a friend about how much I hate that girls are always so dramatic and drag things on whereas boys it's just an "I hate you, you hate me" its done" issue. Of course he too responded by laughing and agreed. Even told me that guys mainly handle things with fists and I'd question: "why do guys figure fighting is the only way to solve things?" And he'd respond with "that's just how guys are.  can be stupid reasons to fight. I remember one day my friend was giving me a hard time and I grew pretty annoyed but he had decided to push me, so I pushed back and we fought and got suspended. But we made up. We also figured "cool couple days out of school", so yeah guys can be stupid." I laughed and shook my head. I'll admit I like his stories. I don't mind knowing more about him and his past, his likes and dislikes, I just know I wanted him....  Another time was when some creep messages me and he offered to be a "pretend boyfriend." Lol wish he could be one to call mine :/

Then one day.... It happened in the auditorium.... My friend decided to blurt out "Kayla likes josh!" Right in front of him I was so embarrassed.... After this he pulled me aside with a grin on his face and looked me in the eyes and goes "is it true? Do you like me?" That's when I screwed myself way completely..... I could've told the truth but I didn't...... I think because I was so scared I'd wind up confessing my feelings and then resulting in him saying "I'm really sorry but I don't feel the same way." So because of that fear, I said "um I just see you as a friend" he looked me in the eyes but couldn't make out if he believed me or not. But he smiled and said "okay" and walked away...... I now look back and wish I could go back in time.... Now truly thinking about it... There's a chance he could've liked me back, but I don't know I was just so scared at the time.

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Now he will never know how I feel about him because a year later, starting next year at high school, there he is moved on to someone new.... And it's my really good friend....