Xx Fuck. I miss you.
Do you know how much a hug means? It means a lot a lot a lot. Just hug me and say everything will be alright. Give me that tightness around my heart and let me in. Xx
He somehow cures me, in a sense that I can breathe when I'm with him. I can forget about breathing and let the memories flow. I finally can breathe when I'm with him. Do you know how suffocating it is when you can't take a deep breathe? It's hard. I'm trying so hard to forget how to breathe so that I don't need to take a deep breathe. It's ironic tho.
Love? What's love? You dump me one second and come back to me after weeks. It's tough. You know how hard it is to forget you.. The more you tries to forget a person,the more it appears in your mind. That's torturing. The moment we are back together, it makes me forget everything and just wanna be with you. The thoughts of breaking up with you is never on my mind when I'm with you.
The hugs and kisses you gave empowered me to love you more. It's a silly love where I know it's going no where. I tried to make myself cry, but no, I can't. Somehow, I became stronger and different. This love is still love but not a love. If you're able to understand me, thank you very much.
You don't come and go from her life. It's important that in a relationship, the girl always need attentions. Don't make her cry at night and not comfort her or say anything for days. You have to think, alright. But think of her too. It takes both hands to clap. If you want comfort, here I am. If you need me, I'm only one call away. Sometimes, I really wonder if you know me. I don't need anything, I just need you. You. You are the source of my happiness, sadness, loneliness and fear. No matter, how much times I warned myself, it doesn't seems to work. The moment I see you, that's my weakness. You makes me smile and think of nothing. The mind will be empty and just wanna hug you real tight.
I appreciate everything you do to me. Truly. But I guess, I still do love you. 💕
But on the second thought, I say fuck it. I didn't really love you in the start.
