LETTING GO - EXOtic_Shipper
PUBLISH: OCTOBER 07, 2013
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAY!!
LAY’s P.O.V
I keep on reading and reading this letter. A letter from my really close friend. And my lover, that until now, I can’t forget her. She gave it to me before I debuted. Let me read some of it:
“Yah! Lay-ssi, I know that when you’re reading this were not together anymore. We’re too far away from each other. You’re busy doing what you have to and achieving your dreams. While me is keeping myself busy in forgetting you...”
I can’t continue it anymore. It’s hard for me to let go of a girl I really love. I can’t help myself but to cry. Until now, I can’t forget her. It’s almost years since I let go of her and she let go of me. To sum it up, we let go of each other. Everyone know that letting go is the most painful thing. Believe me, I’ve been there. I’ve been in that situation and I know the feeling, but the thing is it’s more painful because we still love each other. I can’t even stand a minute away from her but because of my dream we have to let go of each other.
It’s really quiet inside my room. All you can hear is my sobs. Even now, it still hurts.
After reading the letter. I think 100 times or more, I put myself to sleep. Buit I think it was no good. I can’t sleep. All I can see is her face. It’s not easy to forget her.
She has a long straight brown hair. Blue like an ocean eye color. A heart shape and kissble lips.
Remebering her was like putting myself in hell. I think I need to unwined. I got out of the room and walk to the living room, where Sehun, Luhan and Suho are there watching movies. When they saw me the frowned. I wonder what’s wrong.
“Aigooo!! Lay-hyung, what happened to your eyes??”- Sehun asked, with a big eyes and mouth wide-opened.
Suho-hyung and Luhan-hyung seems like they are used to it. Seeing me with my red eyes. But I can still see pity from their eyes. I can’t blame them. I know they can’t stand seeing me like this. We treat each other more than brothers.
“It’s nothng. I’m just...I’m just sleepy.”- I lied then I pretend that I’m yawning. But it looked like it doesn’t convince Sehun.
I think Sehun doesn’t know about it yet. I don’t want to tell him yet. He’s our maknae. He still can’t understand it. He’s still young.
“Your lying. I can see it in your eyes.” - on the second thought, I think he’s in the stage of being matured. And i’m happy about it. Seeing him like this makes me smile.
I patted his head. “Stop it your ruining my hair”
“It’s nothing Sehunnie.”
I sat beside Suho-hyung. His eyes never leave me. From the moment I burst in here until I sat beside him. I sighed. He’s worried for me. I put my arms around his shoulder and whisper to him.
“I’m fine hyung...just... Don’t worry about me. I’ll get over it.”- then I smiled.
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*FLASHBACK*
LAY’s P.O.V.
I got shocked, when the door of the rooftop burst open and I saw a bull’s face - - - I mean the angry but beautiful face of my girl. CUTE!!
She was holding a notebook, which i probably recognized, it was my chemistry notebook. Just when I realize that we have an assignment there. My face turned pale when she;s walking toward me with a face like an angry bull’s face. A few more steps, she is now standing in front of me.
