The Repents

Chapter 1: Here goes..... Nothing !

19th October 2015, 6:29pm.
The day almost spun me to my core. It was the day when everything was over, everything was miserable and numb.
Just me and my fluffy throw, sobs and bed!
Nothing but guilt and tears of regret. One day I'm jumping with excitement and another me under my covers crying my eyes out. "Harry!"
He was my life and utterly everything I ever dreamt of and just one mistake jerked me and threw me out of his life.
Tears filled up my eye, when he finally replied after two long hours of waiting
"I cant live with a girl who cheated on me. A girl who didn't care about a four year relationship. Its OVER." He texted.
I was sitting on my bed when the phone went 'ping', I rushed to it and fell blank. My head went numb, hot tears gushed out of my eyes and the adrenaline rush was so strong that I couldn't feel anything. I was as if I were dead.

Being me sucked. Being me on this supposedly gorgeous night, with the supposedly gorgeous snow looming in five-foot drifts outside my bedroom window, double-sucked. And add to the sad, aching, devastating lack of Harry. I was cold and alone and probably lumpish. I hated feeling sorry for myself, but this was utterly my fault. I couldn't help but feel sorry for myself.
Because, I missed Harry so much.
Because our breakup, which was only a week old and was an open wound, was my own fault.
Life is not a joke, and I treated it to be like a fairytale which would always go like I wished it to. Not caring what effect this would have on others.

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