Believe

Intro

I liked the thought of being able to do things and go places on my own. It scared me a little on the inside but I liked the thought of having my own independence. It made me feel strong and responsible. I enjoyed the thought of being able to do what I wanted and go where I wanted whenever I wanted to. I enjoyed being on my own, sometimes. There are other times where I wish I had someone with me by my side. I liked the thought of being able to turn my head and seeing someone standing next to me and taking in the beautiful scenery along with me. I liked being able to share memories with other people and experiencing new things with someone other than just myself. It was hard to do that now considering I didn't have any family nearby or any close friends. Both my parents died when I was little. My mom died after giving birth to me so I never got to meet her. My dad died in a car accident when I was eleven. He was driving home from work one day on his way to pick me up from school, but he never showed up. I waited and waited before finally my grandmother came and got me. We went to the hospital that night and I stayed there by his side for days. He died a week later. My grandmother lived alone and decided to take me in and raise me from that point on. She was never a big part of my life until then, but I am glad I still got to know her. She died a couple weeks after my eighteenth birthday earlier this year. Now I am living on my own.
I own my own house and have a stable job as a part time photographer but I am working my way up to becoming a model. Modeling has been something that I have wanted to do since I was a little girl. I have modeled a few times, it was nothing big but it was still something. I felt myself and I felt happy.
Anyways, I am in the middle of packing for my trip to New York. I have never been there but I have always wanted to spend Christmas there. I don't know why but something about New York just makes me feel different. I have been saving for a few years now so I could get a good hotel and I really enjoy my time there. It just seems so magical in the Christmas time. I am staying for the whole month of December but I am leaving tomorrow morning, a week early.