The screen door opens...(THUMP)...I fell to the ground and let out this horrifying scream....EMPTINESS..
I was in pieces because at that moment I knew before my aunt opened that screen that my mom was no more. All I felt was empty, alone and for the first time lost.
Sitting there on the hard wooden porch, I remember losing all feeling in my legs. Every time I tried to stand I would fall back down. I couldn't catch a breath, I was crying so much. Finally, my aunt and at the time boyfriend both had to take one arm each and pull me up to stand. After standing there for a moment I was finally able to take my first step into the house.
Like I said previously it was a warm sunny day but as I went into the house all I felt was coldness. It was like my entire world went, dark, black, and cold as a pose to it being bright, sunny and hot. I was a black hole or at least that's how I felt and no one could tell me different.
As I walked through the house to get to the back room where my mom spent her last 6 months or so, I noticed how long the hall was. "What the hell, I don't remember it taking this long to walk to the back of the freakin house". It took what seemed like a lifetime to walk from the livingroom through the kitchen into the den where the door to my mother's room was. It was slightly opened. I remember opening it slowly to see her lifeless body laying on the bed. "Mom, mom, oh my God, NOOOO, please, WHY, mom I love you soon much, I still need you"...tears 😭😭
Please stay tuned there is more..It may take awhile to complete because as I write this I'm digging in my memory bank and doing so causes those once hidden feelings to come back to surface..which makes me very emotional. Thanks
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LIFE... pleasure and pain
Non-FictionHi everyone, I'm new to wattpad so I'm still feeling my way around. I used to write poems alot and one day I just stopped because I had no more desire to write. I have been told by many people that I should start writing again if for no other re...
